I want to wish all those who observe a good Yom Kippur.
As for me, as can be expected, my thoughts on this Yom Kippur are of one person: My dearly departed mom. It seems difficult to believe that next week will be six months since she left me.
I know that Yom Kippur for Jews is supposed to be the day of atonement for sins. In all honesty, except for a few trips to the race track, I have trouble finding what sins I committed this year. In fact, I have practiced forgiveness, by reconciling with my father and his family, after they did so much to hurt me. Independence, by learning to live without my mom. Giving, by being with my mom in her last days. (An automatic, and something I never put a feather in my cap for) That I did from my heart.
Lately I've been working a lot, and making a lot of sales. I cannot believe how many of my mom's things I have found.
In spite of my independence, last night, I had an altercation with my father. I have not taken one penny from him since we are back together, and have lived off the money I earned from my sales. He gave me a lecture about how much money I spend, and not keeping track of my expenses. I do, I just dont write everything down. The original agreement between us had been that I can live off any money except for the insurance policy. Last night, in spite of the fact that I'm going to sell my mom's art, he told me he doesnt want me to touch that money either. Thus, he lied, and is being hypocrticial.
I went through my finances, and figured out that in spite of not having a job, and just doing as I always had selling jewelry and antiques, I have not lived off one penny of the money I've earned since I've been in NY, and instead until now have lived off what I made earlier in the year in PA. . Additionally, I'm planning on starting a major new business venture, once my dad sells his company.
My aunt and my two best friends thought my dad was way out of line for lecturing me like a child about my money. I emailed him about this last night, and to his credit, he apologized. I'm hoping and praying that I can get my new business up and running soon. Once that happens I'll be completely independent. My mom would be appalled if she knew how he was acting. He used to accuse her of "babying" me. In fact, she always let me live my own life, with money, friends, etc. He is the one who wants to be controlling. If that isnt babying I dont know what is.
Tomorrow I'm going to his apartment for the break fast, even though Im not fasting due to my meds. I'm hoping it goes okay.
Anyhow, thats my vent. I hope everyone has a good Yom Kippur.
Mitch
As for me, as can be expected, my thoughts on this Yom Kippur are of one person: My dearly departed mom. It seems difficult to believe that next week will be six months since she left me.
I know that Yom Kippur for Jews is supposed to be the day of atonement for sins. In all honesty, except for a few trips to the race track, I have trouble finding what sins I committed this year. In fact, I have practiced forgiveness, by reconciling with my father and his family, after they did so much to hurt me. Independence, by learning to live without my mom. Giving, by being with my mom in her last days. (An automatic, and something I never put a feather in my cap for) That I did from my heart.
Lately I've been working a lot, and making a lot of sales. I cannot believe how many of my mom's things I have found.
In spite of my independence, last night, I had an altercation with my father. I have not taken one penny from him since we are back together, and have lived off the money I earned from my sales. He gave me a lecture about how much money I spend, and not keeping track of my expenses. I do, I just dont write everything down. The original agreement between us had been that I can live off any money except for the insurance policy. Last night, in spite of the fact that I'm going to sell my mom's art, he told me he doesnt want me to touch that money either. Thus, he lied, and is being hypocrticial.
I went through my finances, and figured out that in spite of not having a job, and just doing as I always had selling jewelry and antiques, I have not lived off one penny of the money I've earned since I've been in NY, and instead until now have lived off what I made earlier in the year in PA. . Additionally, I'm planning on starting a major new business venture, once my dad sells his company.
My aunt and my two best friends thought my dad was way out of line for lecturing me like a child about my money. I emailed him about this last night, and to his credit, he apologized. I'm hoping and praying that I can get my new business up and running soon. Once that happens I'll be completely independent. My mom would be appalled if she knew how he was acting. He used to accuse her of "babying" me. In fact, she always let me live my own life, with money, friends, etc. He is the one who wants to be controlling. If that isnt babying I dont know what is.
Tomorrow I'm going to his apartment for the break fast, even though Im not fasting due to my meds. I'm hoping it goes okay.
Anyhow, thats my vent. I hope everyone has a good Yom Kippur.
Mitch
