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I'm figuring some things out, and my conclusions aren't good.
My mom's death has changed me as a person, so much so that I;ve lost it for interests that used to be important to me.
I've been here, ten years. Everyone who knows me is aware of my past passion about politics. I'm a history major, and a politics minor. I used to love discussing and debating politics. I would defend the Democrats staunchly, and crticize the GOP.
Now.. nothing. I havent watched either convention. In every other year since 1992, I watched all or almost all of both parties conventions.
To be clear, I despise Mitt Romney, maybe more so personally than any other man who has run for president. I think both he and Paul Ryan are out of touch, and would be bad for our country if they win.
However, I dont see that Barack Obama is any better. I will vote for him, but only because of my fear about Romney if he wins. I think Obama has been a very poor president, and I wish he had retired after one term, to give Hillary Clinton a shot.
Baseball.. No. The Braves are in NY this weekend. I'm having a problem with my cable, but might go to one of the games with either my father or my friend Barney. Yet, the passion isnt there for it. If I go, fine, if not,,
Watching Jim Gardner online makes me happy. Thank heaven Jeff told me of the link. My aunt thinks she knows the reason why. My mom initially told me about Gardner, and encouraged me to keep watching even though I thought he was lame. Also, my aunt thinks I enjoy watching him because he;s familiar to me, when everything and everyone else is so new, and that he's been my comfort, when my mom was sick, and since she died.
I still enjoy seeing my friends, and talking to my friends online.
I have plans for a business, and will be looking for a job.
My aunt encouraged me to find a girl. The emotional demands of that wouldnt be wise at this time.
I used to be such an intense person with fire and passion for the interests I had. Now, it seems that I plod. My dream used to be for the Braves to beat the Yankees in the World Series. Anyone who has ever read my past stories about tickling and baseball knows this. I dont know if either will make the postseason this year, but... if the Braves did win, what would my reaction be?
I dont know. Is this my new personality, where I'm just less intense.. or.. have I been pierced so much, that things which used to matter so much, just dont anymore.
I know I need counseling, but, I dont think even that will help. It might be time, or it just might be that I have changed. I dont know anymore.
Mitch
I'm figuring some things out, and my conclusions aren't good.
My mom's death has changed me as a person, so much so that I;ve lost it for interests that used to be important to me.
I've been here, ten years. Everyone who knows me is aware of my past passion about politics. I'm a history major, and a politics minor. I used to love discussing and debating politics. I would defend the Democrats staunchly, and crticize the GOP.
Now.. nothing. I havent watched either convention. In every other year since 1992, I watched all or almost all of both parties conventions.
To be clear, I despise Mitt Romney, maybe more so personally than any other man who has run for president. I think both he and Paul Ryan are out of touch, and would be bad for our country if they win.
However, I dont see that Barack Obama is any better. I will vote for him, but only because of my fear about Romney if he wins. I think Obama has been a very poor president, and I wish he had retired after one term, to give Hillary Clinton a shot.
Baseball.. No. The Braves are in NY this weekend. I'm having a problem with my cable, but might go to one of the games with either my father or my friend Barney. Yet, the passion isnt there for it. If I go, fine, if not,,
Watching Jim Gardner online makes me happy. Thank heaven Jeff told me of the link. My aunt thinks she knows the reason why. My mom initially told me about Gardner, and encouraged me to keep watching even though I thought he was lame. Also, my aunt thinks I enjoy watching him because he;s familiar to me, when everything and everyone else is so new, and that he's been my comfort, when my mom was sick, and since she died.
I still enjoy seeing my friends, and talking to my friends online.
I have plans for a business, and will be looking for a job.
My aunt encouraged me to find a girl. The emotional demands of that wouldnt be wise at this time.
I used to be such an intense person with fire and passion for the interests I had. Now, it seems that I plod. My dream used to be for the Braves to beat the Yankees in the World Series. Anyone who has ever read my past stories about tickling and baseball knows this. I dont know if either will make the postseason this year, but... if the Braves did win, what would my reaction be?
I dont know. Is this my new personality, where I'm just less intense.. or.. have I been pierced so much, that things which used to matter so much, just dont anymore.
I know I need counseling, but, I dont think even that will help. It might be time, or it just might be that I have changed. I dont know anymore.
Mitch
