Well, I'm now in New York for one year. (The actual anniversary of the date is tomorrow, June 17th, but I'm here one year today, since Father's Day, 2012).
As I assess my first year in NY, it's been a time of ups and downs, triumphs, and disappointments.
It's difficult to believe that, as terrible as my last four months in Lancaster were, with my mom's final illness, her passing, and the aftermath, things were actually calm and good when I first moved to NY. My father and I were getting along, Barney and I were getting along, and spending time together, and I was making many sales.
As the year has gone on, things have deteriorated. Sales dried up, sales I expected to make haven't happened. I've been ignored by sources I wanted to work with on my new product business.
Barney went from being an attentive friend, to being arrogant, and absentee, simply because he found a job, and a gf. I had issues and an estrangement from my uncle, issues with cousins, and with my dad.
Then, there was/is the situation with Maria. As recently as this week, we talked for hours. I know she likes me, even if.. as some have said.. just as a "friend".
Today, I'm supposed to go into Manhattan, to spend Father's Day with my dad, Cheryl, and the other children. I haven't seen Cheryl and the kids since last Thanksgiving.
I find myself feeling down. My aunt says this is just a rough period, and that things will get better.
I was relieved when my father agreed not to see the cousins today. I hope to avoid them until things get better. Hopefully by the Jewish holidays, things will improve.
Happy Father's Day to any forum members who celebrate it. Hopefully it will be a good day.
As I assess my first year in NY, it's been a time of ups and downs, triumphs, and disappointments.
It's difficult to believe that, as terrible as my last four months in Lancaster were, with my mom's final illness, her passing, and the aftermath, things were actually calm and good when I first moved to NY. My father and I were getting along, Barney and I were getting along, and spending time together, and I was making many sales.
As the year has gone on, things have deteriorated. Sales dried up, sales I expected to make haven't happened. I've been ignored by sources I wanted to work with on my new product business.
Barney went from being an attentive friend, to being arrogant, and absentee, simply because he found a job, and a gf. I had issues and an estrangement from my uncle, issues with cousins, and with my dad.
Then, there was/is the situation with Maria. As recently as this week, we talked for hours. I know she likes me, even if.. as some have said.. just as a "friend".
Today, I'm supposed to go into Manhattan, to spend Father's Day with my dad, Cheryl, and the other children. I haven't seen Cheryl and the kids since last Thanksgiving.
I find myself feeling down. My aunt says this is just a rough period, and that things will get better.
I was relieved when my father agreed not to see the cousins today. I hope to avoid them until things get better. Hopefully by the Jewish holidays, things will improve.
Happy Father's Day to any forum members who celebrate it. Hopefully it will be a good day.
