So i've decided to blog. I've never really blogged before but I'm bored and a bit tipsy so here goes.
Lately I have been struggling with some things Anyone who knows me, can tell you that I am a total control freak. I have a very type A personality. I'm very organized. I always plan ahead.I hate surprises, i like to be prepared at all times. But lately parts of me have been secretly wanting to give up all of that control.
I always assumed I would be more dominant, and that I would be a "ler". I've always have had an interest in tickling and bondage. I have even purchased some bondage equipment for the sole purpose of tying someone up and have my wicked tickling way with them. But now i think i want it the other way around. I think I want to be the helpless one. This mine boggling. I never thought in a million years that I would want to be submisssive. I'm such a control freak.
Although i must admit this isn't something that just sprung up on me. I think its been secretly creeping in my subconscience. If that makes any sense at all. I think this all started after i went to the Bleu fetish site, and watched some of their videos. I really loved the interaction between the ticklers and the ticklees. Not just the actual tickling ( which was totally awesome), But the teasing and total mind fuck the lers use on lees. I really got into it. It a definetly the type of play i could get into.The more i watch and the more things i read about being a submissive lee, the more I want to play. It funny how you can always learn something new about your self.
Lately I have been struggling with some things Anyone who knows me, can tell you that I am a total control freak. I have a very type A personality. I'm very organized. I always plan ahead.I hate surprises, i like to be prepared at all times. But lately parts of me have been secretly wanting to give up all of that control.
I always assumed I would be more dominant, and that I would be a "ler". I've always have had an interest in tickling and bondage. I have even purchased some bondage equipment for the sole purpose of tying someone up and have my wicked tickling way with them. But now i think i want it the other way around. I think I want to be the helpless one. This mine boggling. I never thought in a million years that I would want to be submisssive. I'm such a control freak.
Although i must admit this isn't something that just sprung up on me. I think its been secretly creeping in my subconscience. If that makes any sense at all. I think this all started after i went to the Bleu fetish site, and watched some of their videos. I really loved the interaction between the ticklers and the ticklees. Not just the actual tickling ( which was totally awesome), But the teasing and total mind fuck the lers use on lees. I really got into it. It a definetly the type of play i could get into.The more i watch and the more things i read about being a submissive lee, the more I want to play. It funny how you can always learn something new about your self.
