Thanks to my 3rd shift position, my sleep schedule has been even more screwed up than before. So I'm left watching movies, drawing and random thoughts.
I used to enjoy the randomness of tickling, being that there were times I could be involved in tickle fights. But as I got older, the tickle fights slowed to a crawl and it was I doing most of the tickling. I found out that the more I was the ler, the less I was trying to be a lee. That is not to say I don't ever want to be the lee, its just the less time I got tickled, seems the less time I thought about it even while doing the tickling. Odd, I know.
This year though, I have had the urge to be tickled to test my limits. Why? I have no clue. At first it was just that I wanted to be tickled to relieve some stress. Day to day life, work, and family were seriously getting to me and I started being curious about the tickling I was giving out to my play partner. The last time I was tickled by a fellow tickle enthusiast was in 2011. and before that, 2010. Come to think of it, those were the only 2 times I was tickled by others into the same kink. I guess I wanted to see their skills since they told me they were good ticklers. So when I did have the sessions with them, it lasted no more than 20 minutes.
So to get back on point, I had the urge to be a lee since Feb. and I tried telling my play partners, which got turned down. A quick explanation is one says she can't tickle(or she doesn't want to see me squirm under her fingers), the other admits she can't see herself as a top(she isn't into tickling, just enjoys being tickled by me). So I was out of luck, so I tried the personals, still a no go, even attempted a vid company, but got no response.
Around April, the urge to be tickled to relieve some stress turned into an urge to test my limits. Not sure how it got to that, but it was what it was. Yet there still were no takers. A few more months went by and by Mid-August, the urge subsided, but the wonder of how much I could take is still there. I expressed this concern to a few online ladies I talk to and of course I can see their desire to actually want to help out with that. Only issue is they live in the mid west, or the west coast.
Hearing their sincere want to test my limits, makes the urge come back, but then I think of the distance and it goes away. So here I am late night still wondering what it would be like to be bound and have my limits tested. Till I find a local friend who has the same attitude, a ler I will continue to be.
Nyte
I used to enjoy the randomness of tickling, being that there were times I could be involved in tickle fights. But as I got older, the tickle fights slowed to a crawl and it was I doing most of the tickling. I found out that the more I was the ler, the less I was trying to be a lee. That is not to say I don't ever want to be the lee, its just the less time I got tickled, seems the less time I thought about it even while doing the tickling. Odd, I know.
This year though, I have had the urge to be tickled to test my limits. Why? I have no clue. At first it was just that I wanted to be tickled to relieve some stress. Day to day life, work, and family were seriously getting to me and I started being curious about the tickling I was giving out to my play partner. The last time I was tickled by a fellow tickle enthusiast was in 2011. and before that, 2010. Come to think of it, those were the only 2 times I was tickled by others into the same kink. I guess I wanted to see their skills since they told me they were good ticklers. So when I did have the sessions with them, it lasted no more than 20 minutes.
So to get back on point, I had the urge to be a lee since Feb. and I tried telling my play partners, which got turned down. A quick explanation is one says she can't tickle(or she doesn't want to see me squirm under her fingers), the other admits she can't see herself as a top(she isn't into tickling, just enjoys being tickled by me). So I was out of luck, so I tried the personals, still a no go, even attempted a vid company, but got no response.
Around April, the urge to be tickled to relieve some stress turned into an urge to test my limits. Not sure how it got to that, but it was what it was. Yet there still were no takers. A few more months went by and by Mid-August, the urge subsided, but the wonder of how much I could take is still there. I expressed this concern to a few online ladies I talk to and of course I can see their desire to actually want to help out with that. Only issue is they live in the mid west, or the west coast.
Hearing their sincere want to test my limits, makes the urge come back, but then I think of the distance and it goes away. So here I am late night still wondering what it would be like to be bound and have my limits tested. Till I find a local friend who has the same attitude, a ler I will continue to be.
Nyte
