Vent about my relatives best posted here.
My relatives simply dont get it...nor do they really care.
I had lunch with my father on Friday.
He claimed to understand the terrible frustration I have about my life.
We had orginally agreed to have dinner alone for my birthday this Friday.
Yesterday he called me, and said that Cheryl wanted to have dinner with us.
At first I said yes.. Then was thinking about it last night.. and thought maybe it would be best that she not. I'm feeling really badly about things, and dont want to be with her, where she can pass judgement on me.
I gently mentioned this to him this morning, and he got furious, after telling me how "Great" his stepdaughter is.
Of course, he couldnt resist a jab about my mom on Friday. "One comment about Sheila". Tomorrow would have been her 77th birthday, and she's been DEAD for almost three years.
Finally, he supposedly agreed to see me alone on Friday, but told me not to "Blame him" for my situation.
No, I dont "Blame him". He only never discussed my future with me, and put together this "Great Family" with Brooke and Cheryl before ironing out his relationship with me.
When I called my aunt the artist to tell her what he did.. ranting about my dead mother, bragging about his "Great stepdaughter", flying off the handle, because I told him I didnt know if I wanted to be with Cheryl now, to be judged by Cheryl, my aunt the bitch said.
"I cant think of anything but my own life". (Meaning she doesnt give a fuck what happens with me, the job search, my situation with my father, and that he goes off about her dead sister.).
I promptly gave her an earful of phone slam.
Fuck her. This is someone who goes off about her roommate all the time, and who lies to me,
That I can tell her if something new happens to upset me, only to give me that shit.
I plan to take a long hiatus from her.
So,.. I dont know what happens now. My fsther might see me alone on Friday, but. how will he treat me, because I didnt spend my birthday in the way he wanted to,.
Had it been, Fathers Day, or his bday, I would have pushed myself.
I cant forget that Cheryl wished Aflac to fail.
One week after I signed into the company.. before I had even tried to recruit.. she said.
"If Aflac doesnt work, you';ll get a job".
Uncalled for, since I hadnt even tried Aflac yet.
I dont delude myself to believe that this woman Cheryl gives a fuck about me, my future, or what I want.. after all.. she built this "Great family" with him when he and I were estranged,.
If I won the lottery, I would just leave.
I would pay my dad off every penny he laid out for the apartment.. pay my rent and other bills for a year, and take a world trip, and not be in touch with anyone.
God doesnt help those who help themselves. That is bullshit.
He helps those who he wants to help.
I killed myself to pass the insurance exam, only to have every roadblock thrown in my way, only to be led to believe that a big client was signing, to find out they werent signing, to be forced to leave, to spend two months, killing myself to find a job, to not being able to find a job, to having my father rub it in how great his stepdaughter is, and rant about my dead mother, to have my aunt tell me she doesnt care what happens to me.
I told my father today that I really wished I was dead.
I dont suspect he would care very much if I was dead.
He has his "Great family" with his wife and her children, and he would be rid of me.
I'm not planning to do anything to myself.
If it isnt going to get better, I just wish I would have a quick, natural ending.
I'm going to keep looking for jobs this week as I always do.
Finding a job isnt going to solve my real problems, though.
it isnt going to free me of the relatives who treat me as they do.,
My relatives simply dont get it...nor do they really care.
I had lunch with my father on Friday.
He claimed to understand the terrible frustration I have about my life.
We had orginally agreed to have dinner alone for my birthday this Friday.
Yesterday he called me, and said that Cheryl wanted to have dinner with us.
At first I said yes.. Then was thinking about it last night.. and thought maybe it would be best that she not. I'm feeling really badly about things, and dont want to be with her, where she can pass judgement on me.
I gently mentioned this to him this morning, and he got furious, after telling me how "Great" his stepdaughter is.
Of course, he couldnt resist a jab about my mom on Friday. "One comment about Sheila". Tomorrow would have been her 77th birthday, and she's been DEAD for almost three years.
Finally, he supposedly agreed to see me alone on Friday, but told me not to "Blame him" for my situation.
No, I dont "Blame him". He only never discussed my future with me, and put together this "Great Family" with Brooke and Cheryl before ironing out his relationship with me.
When I called my aunt the artist to tell her what he did.. ranting about my dead mother, bragging about his "Great stepdaughter", flying off the handle, because I told him I didnt know if I wanted to be with Cheryl now, to be judged by Cheryl, my aunt the bitch said.
"I cant think of anything but my own life". (Meaning she doesnt give a fuck what happens with me, the job search, my situation with my father, and that he goes off about her dead sister.).
I promptly gave her an earful of phone slam.
Fuck her. This is someone who goes off about her roommate all the time, and who lies to me,
That I can tell her if something new happens to upset me, only to give me that shit.
I plan to take a long hiatus from her.
So,.. I dont know what happens now. My fsther might see me alone on Friday, but. how will he treat me, because I didnt spend my birthday in the way he wanted to,.
Had it been, Fathers Day, or his bday, I would have pushed myself.
I cant forget that Cheryl wished Aflac to fail.
One week after I signed into the company.. before I had even tried to recruit.. she said.
"If Aflac doesnt work, you';ll get a job".
Uncalled for, since I hadnt even tried Aflac yet.
I dont delude myself to believe that this woman Cheryl gives a fuck about me, my future, or what I want.. after all.. she built this "Great family" with him when he and I were estranged,.
If I won the lottery, I would just leave.
I would pay my dad off every penny he laid out for the apartment.. pay my rent and other bills for a year, and take a world trip, and not be in touch with anyone.
God doesnt help those who help themselves. That is bullshit.
He helps those who he wants to help.
I killed myself to pass the insurance exam, only to have every roadblock thrown in my way, only to be led to believe that a big client was signing, to find out they werent signing, to be forced to leave, to spend two months, killing myself to find a job, to not being able to find a job, to having my father rub it in how great his stepdaughter is, and rant about my dead mother, to have my aunt tell me she doesnt care what happens to me.
I told my father today that I really wished I was dead.
I dont suspect he would care very much if I was dead.
He has his "Great family" with his wife and her children, and he would be rid of me.
I'm not planning to do anything to myself.
If it isnt going to get better, I just wish I would have a quick, natural ending.
I'm going to keep looking for jobs this week as I always do.
Finding a job isnt going to solve my real problems, though.
it isnt going to free me of the relatives who treat me as they do.,
