Safe Words Don't Really Mean Much if You Decide to be a Stubborn Bitch.

So My New Years Eve was awesomesauce! I met a guy off of FetLife and had play time in a hotel room. He didn't have a tickle fetish when I first talked to him, but he dose now 😉. So I got tickled just about the whole night. I said my safe word a few times, but I hated saying it. I hate feeling like I fully submitted and I feel defeated when I say it. There is also my feminist bitch side of me that wants to prove she is a strong woman to men. Okay back to the story at hand. Well at one point I asked him to put me in a hog tie. Hog ties are my favorite! I hated how many times I had already said spinach (aka my safe word) and turned into a stubborn bitch. He was trying so hard to get to say it. I was saying stuff like OMG, okay, please stop and no, but the objective was for me to say the word spinach. He kept telling me all I had to do was say the word and I said, "No I refuse." Well because of my stubbornness I blacked out. Yes you read right I blacked out. I can't remember much other than he was tickling my worst spot sadistically. I wanted to say spinach so bad, but I just couldn't bring myself to say it. My brain was going insane from the tickling and I ran out of air. Next thing I know everything went black. He said I was out for about ten minutes and I freaked him out. He untied me and tried shaking and tickling me to get me to wake up. He started slapping my face a bit and I woke up a little scared. I can't say it was a wonderful experience, but it also wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Maybe I learned my lesson and will use my safe word now? Hmm knowing how stubborn I can get probably not.