I went to see my speech therapist today. I told her about the actions of my father, and my friend Barney. I don't yet feel comfortable telling her about this forum.
My speech therapist thinks that my father is disgraceful, for giving me a ripping, attacking speech, at the time he knew I wasn't going to get the big account, I had been promised, and that I was going to have to likely drop out of Aflac, due to what his client did.
She also thinks that my friend Barney is an outrage, for wanting me to be his support system when he loses jobs, and when things go badly for him, and then to turn his back on me, when I'm forced to resign from a company that I worked so hard in for a year.
I came up with a fair compromise with her.. I'm still feeling very angry/upset between what happened with Aflac, my father, and Barney.. so.. I'm going to take the rest of this week off, call the temp agency on Friday morning, and make an appointment for Monday, or ASAP next week. By next week I'll be more calm from this situation. I still need a couple of days.
The law firm not signing, and losing the situation at Aflac, is one thing.. but.. to be so ripped to shreds, by people who want me to be so understanding, and sympathetic to their feelings, when they have setbacks, is the ultimate in hypocrisy. Next time, if either Barney or my father have something go wrong, I will be as sympathetic to them, as they were to me, during this terribly difficult time, after losing the position at Aflac, that I loved, due to the lies of my father's client/friend, and then having my father justify said client/friend.
Bottom line: Someone who posted yesterday stated it. I have to take care of myself, and do what's right for me, and fuck both my father and Barney. I don't delude myself to believe that my upset feelings of what happened with the law firm, and Aflac, are touching my father or Barney in any way. I will remember it, always.
My speech therapist thinks that my father is disgraceful, for giving me a ripping, attacking speech, at the time he knew I wasn't going to get the big account, I had been promised, and that I was going to have to likely drop out of Aflac, due to what his client did.
She also thinks that my friend Barney is an outrage, for wanting me to be his support system when he loses jobs, and when things go badly for him, and then to turn his back on me, when I'm forced to resign from a company that I worked so hard in for a year.
I came up with a fair compromise with her.. I'm still feeling very angry/upset between what happened with Aflac, my father, and Barney.. so.. I'm going to take the rest of this week off, call the temp agency on Friday morning, and make an appointment for Monday, or ASAP next week. By next week I'll be more calm from this situation. I still need a couple of days.
The law firm not signing, and losing the situation at Aflac, is one thing.. but.. to be so ripped to shreds, by people who want me to be so understanding, and sympathetic to their feelings, when they have setbacks, is the ultimate in hypocrisy. Next time, if either Barney or my father have something go wrong, I will be as sympathetic to them, as they were to me, during this terribly difficult time, after losing the position at Aflac, that I loved, due to the lies of my father's client/friend, and then having my father justify said client/friend.
Bottom line: Someone who posted yesterday stated it. I have to take care of myself, and do what's right for me, and fuck both my father and Barney. I don't delude myself to believe that my upset feelings of what happened with the law firm, and Aflac, are touching my father or Barney in any way. I will remember it, always.
