I know this probably isn't what I should be blogging about right now. I'm trying to just chill before my meeting, but.. my aunt the artist said something to me last night, that made me just sick.
She's having trouble with her husband. Basically, he's from a Latin American country, and married her just to get his green card. They have troubles, and he claims he's leaving, which would put her home in danger.
She might have to end up living in an undesirable situation.
While I want to feel sympathy for her.. last night she said the following.
"I wish I was dead.. Your mother had it easier than I do",.
Er.. She did, you bitch? My mother,. who you supposedly loved.. My mother, who suffered and died of the worst disease.. My mother, who spent her last days in a nursing home, in a wheelchair.. having to be changed, and washed, and fed, and spent her last days in incredible pain, without even her rational and memory functions.
As much as I would hate him, and want to punch him out, if he said it.. I would expect my father to say something like "Your mother got what she deserved". In his mind, she was his worst enemy. So far, he hasn't said that, even if he;s thinking it.
Bottom line.. without my mom and me, helping my aunt, my aunt would have been in the street, years ago.
I told my aunt to kindly shut up when she said those horrible words.
For those who say to me. "You don't know how she feels, if you're not standing in her shoes. ". Maybe true.. but.. even if God Forbid I myself was facing homelessness.. having watched how my mom suffered.. I would never think,.,. or say such a thing., My aunt saw my mom.. wheelchair, and bedridden, in such pain, in the last days of my mom's life.. and still said such a thing? Even though my aunt wished me "Luck" on my signing today, I have no respect for her as a person. My aunt cant upset her son's apple cart by discussing anything with him.. or asking him to help her.. but she has to lay all her shit on me, and say such horrible things.
I just have to focus in on my meeting today, and signing my contract. Simply put.. let my aunt paddle her own canoe. I offered her alternative ways to market her art, years ago, and she fought my mom and me every step of the way. Maybe.. if she had listened to me.. she would have been earning a decent living now, and not in this position.
I don't know why both of my parents. (My dad with his rotten brother, and my mom with her two miserable human being sisters). had such affinity for their siblings. None of their siblings were/are worth the effort, concern, and love that both of my parents gave to all of their siblings.
She's having trouble with her husband. Basically, he's from a Latin American country, and married her just to get his green card. They have troubles, and he claims he's leaving, which would put her home in danger.
She might have to end up living in an undesirable situation.
While I want to feel sympathy for her.. last night she said the following.
"I wish I was dead.. Your mother had it easier than I do",.
Er.. She did, you bitch? My mother,. who you supposedly loved.. My mother, who suffered and died of the worst disease.. My mother, who spent her last days in a nursing home, in a wheelchair.. having to be changed, and washed, and fed, and spent her last days in incredible pain, without even her rational and memory functions.
As much as I would hate him, and want to punch him out, if he said it.. I would expect my father to say something like "Your mother got what she deserved". In his mind, she was his worst enemy. So far, he hasn't said that, even if he;s thinking it.
Bottom line.. without my mom and me, helping my aunt, my aunt would have been in the street, years ago.
I told my aunt to kindly shut up when she said those horrible words.
For those who say to me. "You don't know how she feels, if you're not standing in her shoes. ". Maybe true.. but.. even if God Forbid I myself was facing homelessness.. having watched how my mom suffered.. I would never think,.,. or say such a thing., My aunt saw my mom.. wheelchair, and bedridden, in such pain, in the last days of my mom's life.. and still said such a thing? Even though my aunt wished me "Luck" on my signing today, I have no respect for her as a person. My aunt cant upset her son's apple cart by discussing anything with him.. or asking him to help her.. but she has to lay all her shit on me, and say such horrible things.
I just have to focus in on my meeting today, and signing my contract. Simply put.. let my aunt paddle her own canoe. I offered her alternative ways to market her art, years ago, and she fought my mom and me every step of the way. Maybe.. if she had listened to me.. she would have been earning a decent living now, and not in this position.
I don't know why both of my parents. (My dad with his rotten brother, and my mom with her two miserable human being sisters). had such affinity for their siblings. None of their siblings were/are worth the effort, concern, and love that both of my parents gave to all of their siblings.
