I really need to say it somewhere, so I can try to start feeling better. I really can't do this feeling sorry for myself and being upset thing. We went to the doctor yesterday to find out what we were having.. only to find out that the baby was underdeveloped (by 6 weeks) and no longer had a heartbeat. Needless to say, Yesterday was the hardest thing I've ever been through. My emotions come in waves.. one minute I'm fine like nothing happened and the next I'm a horrible wreck.
Sometime next week, I'll be having a D&C and a month later we'll start trying again. Josh and I are pretty broke up about it.. which I'm sure is expected. We both feel slightly insensitive for just picking up the pieces and moving on like nothing happened, but we both see it as there is nothing we can really do besides grieve and move on. Sure it's hard and of course, once we get pregnant again it isn't going to be the same.
I really don't know what else to say..
Sometime next week, I'll be having a D&C and a month later we'll start trying again. Josh and I are pretty broke up about it.. which I'm sure is expected. We both feel slightly insensitive for just picking up the pieces and moving on like nothing happened, but we both see it as there is nothing we can really do besides grieve and move on. Sure it's hard and of course, once we get pregnant again it isn't going to be the same.
I really don't know what else to say..
