We talked all day yesterday. I called her sweety, she hates that. So, I offered to make it up to her by buying a frosty at Wendy's. For those who may not know, a frosty is basically a little ice cream and Wendy's is a little fast food place here in Ohio.
So I told her that she was always bad with words but good on acting, so long story short I went in for a kiss. We made out for a little while, and I took her to get the frosty. We then parked in a nearby parking lot where she informed me that dating would be a bad idea.
I told her I understand and went to start the car to take her home, but she told me to wait. So I waited. I rambled on for like.... ever about how we're just too good for each other and simply didn't know what to do with it back then. She told me she's still in love with me. I told her that I am with her, too.
We cried, and I finally took her home. Sitting outside of her house with her in my car, I said fuck it. Let's just do it. If we're going to fight, we're going to fight tomorrow since neither of us is passive aggressive.
She told me her biggest reason for not wanting to. She doesn't want to go through the process of losing me all over again because it was really hard for her. She was scared shitless.
But she agreed. I am hoping it's out of love for me, and not because I somehow convinced her.
So.... there we are. I'm going to see her in a few here.
I'm happy, but there is somebody that isn't. Courtney. The girl I lived with for 2 years before I ever met Josie. I went to her house last night after seeing Josie because she needed support. Her BF is basically doing what he did in the past and ignoring her when she needs him most.
So I was there to be supportive and let her know somebody cares. She on the other hand decided to inform me that she's still in love with me. :-/
Josie and I are a couple once again, though. I'm happy. She's happy. It's really hard to say how things are going to go right now. She said a lot of things last night. She said while she was happy without me, she did feel empty in a sense and did miss me. She also had a blog post about how it's all my fault made on 3/27/11. I woke her up at 4 when I read it, and she said that's how she felt at the time.
I can understand, I went through a not so good phase, too. It still sucks, but hey, it happened. As confused as she can be sometimes, I still believe that she wouldn't be with me at this very moment if she felt the way that entry states. So, we cleared that up.
We aren't making it a big deal with family either. We told our closest friends, I posted here, but as far as family is concerned we're just slowly getting into it. I told her to let us feel it all and take it in, they can know eventually.
So we're together.... and we interact like we were never apart. In our mind, I don't believe we ever were. And that's scary and amazing all at once.
And as for Courtney? She had me and abused her chance with me. I wasn't an angel, but she did some fucked up shit. So while I'll continue to support her, she's not a factor in any of this.
Gotta get going now..... life..... can be pretty interesting sometimes, no?
So I told her that she was always bad with words but good on acting, so long story short I went in for a kiss. We made out for a little while, and I took her to get the frosty. We then parked in a nearby parking lot where she informed me that dating would be a bad idea.
I told her I understand and went to start the car to take her home, but she told me to wait. So I waited. I rambled on for like.... ever about how we're just too good for each other and simply didn't know what to do with it back then. She told me she's still in love with me. I told her that I am with her, too.
We cried, and I finally took her home. Sitting outside of her house with her in my car, I said fuck it. Let's just do it. If we're going to fight, we're going to fight tomorrow since neither of us is passive aggressive.
She told me her biggest reason for not wanting to. She doesn't want to go through the process of losing me all over again because it was really hard for her. She was scared shitless.
But she agreed. I am hoping it's out of love for me, and not because I somehow convinced her.
So.... there we are. I'm going to see her in a few here.
I'm happy, but there is somebody that isn't. Courtney. The girl I lived with for 2 years before I ever met Josie. I went to her house last night after seeing Josie because she needed support. Her BF is basically doing what he did in the past and ignoring her when she needs him most.
So I was there to be supportive and let her know somebody cares. She on the other hand decided to inform me that she's still in love with me. :-/
Josie and I are a couple once again, though. I'm happy. She's happy. It's really hard to say how things are going to go right now. She said a lot of things last night. She said while she was happy without me, she did feel empty in a sense and did miss me. She also had a blog post about how it's all my fault made on 3/27/11. I woke her up at 4 when I read it, and she said that's how she felt at the time.
I can understand, I went through a not so good phase, too. It still sucks, but hey, it happened. As confused as she can be sometimes, I still believe that she wouldn't be with me at this very moment if she felt the way that entry states. So, we cleared that up.
We aren't making it a big deal with family either. We told our closest friends, I posted here, but as far as family is concerned we're just slowly getting into it. I told her to let us feel it all and take it in, they can know eventually.
So we're together.... and we interact like we were never apart. In our mind, I don't believe we ever were. And that's scary and amazing all at once.
And as for Courtney? She had me and abused her chance with me. I wasn't an angel, but she did some fucked up shit. So while I'll continue to support her, she's not a factor in any of this.
Gotta get going now..... life..... can be pretty interesting sometimes, no?
