I wanted to post this in the blog, so as not to clutter up the main forum with it.
In regard to the thread that has gone on for weeks, here are my true feelings.
I know that it was a complete mistake to post that thread. I take full responsibility for it. That thread has caused me a lot of problems.
I'm not, however, going to take responsibility for those who really dont mean well in that thread. Those people that dont like me really should have stayed out of it, as their purpose is simply to bash me because they can. I'm thinking specifically of two or three people, who have had a history of doing this, whose names I wont mention.
Now. to my "justifcation", if there is one.
Remember, . my now former best friend completely blew up our 29 year friendship, by letting me lie in the hospital for three weeks, with my then sick mother who was fighting cancer , without ever visiting us. Why? He had met a girl .. a week before... and decided he didnt need to be my friend anymore.
Everyone, including my dad, who as forum members know is my harshest critic.. told me that I was absolutely right for ending that friendship, and that he would have done the same thing.
Soo.. to this situation.. Barney meets someone, and his demeanor towards me changes. I'm thinking "This isnt happening again". We've been friends for 21 years.
It didnt happen. Reality is.. Barney has been giving me time. He went on a casino trip with me today, and also spent time with me last night on the one year anniversary of my putting my mom in the nursing home.
Thinking what I did about Barney.. so far.. and my posting that thread.,. was my fault. However, due to the past situation with this, perhaps someone can put themselves in my shoes, and see why I thought what I did.
WHY.
I dont know if this explains it.. or will get me more bashed, but I'm trying to take responsibility, and at least explain my motivation behind it. Next time, if something like this does happen, or even anything regarding my feelings on April 4th, I will put into the blog.
In regard to the thread that has gone on for weeks, here are my true feelings.
I know that it was a complete mistake to post that thread. I take full responsibility for it. That thread has caused me a lot of problems.
I'm not, however, going to take responsibility for those who really dont mean well in that thread. Those people that dont like me really should have stayed out of it, as their purpose is simply to bash me because they can. I'm thinking specifically of two or three people, who have had a history of doing this, whose names I wont mention.
Now. to my "justifcation", if there is one.
Remember, . my now former best friend completely blew up our 29 year friendship, by letting me lie in the hospital for three weeks, with my then sick mother who was fighting cancer , without ever visiting us. Why? He had met a girl .. a week before... and decided he didnt need to be my friend anymore.
Everyone, including my dad, who as forum members know is my harshest critic.. told me that I was absolutely right for ending that friendship, and that he would have done the same thing.
Soo.. to this situation.. Barney meets someone, and his demeanor towards me changes. I'm thinking "This isnt happening again". We've been friends for 21 years.
It didnt happen. Reality is.. Barney has been giving me time. He went on a casino trip with me today, and also spent time with me last night on the one year anniversary of my putting my mom in the nursing home.
Thinking what I did about Barney.. so far.. and my posting that thread.,. was my fault. However, due to the past situation with this, perhaps someone can put themselves in my shoes, and see why I thought what I did.
WHY.
I dont know if this explains it.. or will get me more bashed, but I'm trying to take responsibility, and at least explain my motivation behind it. Next time, if something like this does happen, or even anything regarding my feelings on April 4th, I will put into the blog.
