Figured I'd post this. .
During the past. two weeks especially.. I have been really busting tail trying to find a job. I've been into Manhattan to the outsourcing office where they interview for jobs at least.. half a dozen times. One job.. with a party planning company. I didn't get. Another one.. turned out to be not what was advertised.. and essentially was going around as a rep, trying to get people to convert their power company. I withdrew from that one. Not to mention, the dozens I've applied to.. which I didn't get replies to.
Which brings me to the current situation. I had an interview with.. a major company.. the name of which I do not want to post yet, out of superstition. I had what was essentially at first a group presentation session, as specified by the company. Now, I'm going back for a one on one interview on Monday, I'm being very cautious because of all the disappointment I've had. IF I get the position, it MIGHT be the major break that I haven't yet caught.
Such does not change the terrible situation that is ongoing with my relatives. Simply put,. they all disgust me. The reason I post (ed) things in the blog, is because I don't have my mom to talk to about them anymore.
Tonight, my aunt the artist, the most selfish person in the world, genius that she is.. said the following to me.
"Most people have jobs.. You will not be able to get the business you want to do started without your father's help, and he doesn't want to help you. You just have to accept it, and I (She) don't want to hear your disappointment anymore. It;'s too much. "
I promptly slammed the phone on her.
THIS from someone who is an artist, and lived her dream, while taking thousands of dollars from my mom and I, as her partner lived off her, and us. She's the ultimate hypocrite if there ever was one. HER SON got his dream job, in the exact industry/field that he wanted to, but its okay with her if Mitch;s dream doesn't come true.
"The job" if I get it, will not achieve the goal of my being free from my father.. at least for a very long time. I believe I'll have some salary, but.. I will have to build up a client base, because much of it is commission too. It's in a good industry, with a good company.
I'd love to do a clean sweep, and tell my entire family to go to hell. That's not realistically going to happen... at least for a while.
When I get blasted by the geniuses on here for my situation.,
Doesn't everyone think I KNOW where my life is?
I click on Facebook profiles, for people in my HS. Not even people I knew well, but just.. people from classes.. all around my age.
One is a famous newscaster. (Guy) Another.. a major executive in a major company. (Another guy) .Another married.. with a good career, and kids. ( A girl).
I think of everything I have going against me. My age, my health, my completely screwed up horrible family. Even if I get the position I hope to.. and achieve,.,. a moderate amount of success., is there any woman who is going to want to deal with that,.. not to mention,.. my fetishes.. interests?
My aunt the astrologer told me yesterday that I "Can do better" than Maria. The reason Maria and I aren't together isn't because of her age.. or her resume/job. It's because Maria wont take a chance on me.
Right now, I need to focus on one thing.. my meeting on Monday. Unfortunately, I have to see my father tomorrow. I'm hoping its a short visit with him.
I don't want to make any predictions on what is going to happen with the position I'm meeting about. I don't want to be negative, but nor do I want to be overconfident, and possibly have a big letdown if it doesn't happen.
I'm hopeful that any replies will be supportive, and not the usual "Bash Mitch". with justification for my relatives. I really have been busting tail lately to try and change things.
Anyhow, that's the situation. I will post more if I get the position.
During the past. two weeks especially.. I have been really busting tail trying to find a job. I've been into Manhattan to the outsourcing office where they interview for jobs at least.. half a dozen times. One job.. with a party planning company. I didn't get. Another one.. turned out to be not what was advertised.. and essentially was going around as a rep, trying to get people to convert their power company. I withdrew from that one. Not to mention, the dozens I've applied to.. which I didn't get replies to.
Which brings me to the current situation. I had an interview with.. a major company.. the name of which I do not want to post yet, out of superstition. I had what was essentially at first a group presentation session, as specified by the company. Now, I'm going back for a one on one interview on Monday, I'm being very cautious because of all the disappointment I've had. IF I get the position, it MIGHT be the major break that I haven't yet caught.
Such does not change the terrible situation that is ongoing with my relatives. Simply put,. they all disgust me. The reason I post (ed) things in the blog, is because I don't have my mom to talk to about them anymore.
Tonight, my aunt the artist, the most selfish person in the world, genius that she is.. said the following to me.
"Most people have jobs.. You will not be able to get the business you want to do started without your father's help, and he doesn't want to help you. You just have to accept it, and I (She) don't want to hear your disappointment anymore. It;'s too much. "
I promptly slammed the phone on her.
THIS from someone who is an artist, and lived her dream, while taking thousands of dollars from my mom and I, as her partner lived off her, and us. She's the ultimate hypocrite if there ever was one. HER SON got his dream job, in the exact industry/field that he wanted to, but its okay with her if Mitch;s dream doesn't come true.
"The job" if I get it, will not achieve the goal of my being free from my father.. at least for a very long time. I believe I'll have some salary, but.. I will have to build up a client base, because much of it is commission too. It's in a good industry, with a good company.
I'd love to do a clean sweep, and tell my entire family to go to hell. That's not realistically going to happen... at least for a while.
When I get blasted by the geniuses on here for my situation.,
Doesn't everyone think I KNOW where my life is?
I click on Facebook profiles, for people in my HS. Not even people I knew well, but just.. people from classes.. all around my age.
One is a famous newscaster. (Guy) Another.. a major executive in a major company. (Another guy) .Another married.. with a good career, and kids. ( A girl).
I think of everything I have going against me. My age, my health, my completely screwed up horrible family. Even if I get the position I hope to.. and achieve,.,. a moderate amount of success., is there any woman who is going to want to deal with that,.. not to mention,.. my fetishes.. interests?
My aunt the astrologer told me yesterday that I "Can do better" than Maria. The reason Maria and I aren't together isn't because of her age.. or her resume/job. It's because Maria wont take a chance on me.
Right now, I need to focus on one thing.. my meeting on Monday. Unfortunately, I have to see my father tomorrow. I'm hoping its a short visit with him.
I don't want to make any predictions on what is going to happen with the position I'm meeting about. I don't want to be negative, but nor do I want to be overconfident, and possibly have a big letdown if it doesn't happen.
I'm hopeful that any replies will be supportive, and not the usual "Bash Mitch". with justification for my relatives. I really have been busting tail lately to try and change things.
Anyhow, that's the situation. I will post more if I get the position.
