Thriving

Have you ever felt socially empty? My world
of friendships has changed dramatically in the
last year. It's difficult at best to maintain all
of my friendships at the same level that I used
to, prior to becoming collared. By accepting
Lee's collar, I made a commitment to her. I
vowed to give her my all as her submissive.

Not many of my friends are into D/s (referring
to the friends I've made on the TMF). It's so
hard to explain my love for it, and the rules
that go along with it. A large percentage of
my friendships have dwindled down to casual
acquaintances. It hurts so badly that this is
happening, but I don't know how to fix it
without compromising my best submission
for Lee, which is something I won't ever be
willing to compromise.

I finally decided to proceed with my divorce.
If he refuses to sign, and doesn't show up
for court, it will be granted to me anyway.
The only way he can fight me on it is if he
hires his own attorney, which I know he can't
afford to do. There's nothing to fight over, we
divided everything up when I legally separated
last year. Just making the decision to file, along
with the subsequent phone call to my lawyer,
was such a burden lifted. I finally feel free to
date now. My court date should be in July or
August (but possibly as late as October), and
then I'll officially be single.

I'm laying in my bed right now, one weenie(dog)
laying next to me, chomping on a rawhide, and
the other is in her princess bed in her kennel
popping one of her stuffy squeak toys. I know
I made the right decision to pack up my pack
and head to New Hampshire. I miss my family
so much. My non-forum friends too. But this
was something I had to do, to really and fully
get out on my own and not just make it, but
thrive. And thriving I am.​