trial separation

3:35am. thursday morning. day 2. for those of you who aren't familiar with my situation, i'll sum up very quickly. after coming home from a trip to california, my wife told me that she wanted to move back to MI and that the plan didn't include me. she said she's just not sure if she wants to be married anymore. not just to me, but at all. so we both thought a trial separation might be the thing to do. i've sinced signed a 6 month lease and moved into an apartment 2 days ago. i told her that i wanted her to stay in the house. i felt it was safer there. all along, ever since i got this latest bomb dropped on me, i've been drowning myself in guilt and the self-deprivation mode has kicked in to high gear: little sleep and little food. i can't help it, it's just what i do when i'm depressed. i can't seem to get out of my mind that i failed. i failed as a husband, as a friend, as a partner. eventhough i'm reassured by her that it's not about me, it doesn't make it any easier. so here i sit in a half empty apartment.....alone. at the end of october, she'll have made a decision on what she wants to do. the only thing i can do is let her have her space and time to do her thing. hopefully she can get her head straight......if she can,, i stand a better chance of not losing my wife. if not, then i'll be saying goodbye to the best thing that's ever happened to me.