Yesterday, my father requested to see me. He was originally supposed to see me on Friday, but kept putting that off all day and night. Soo. instead of trying to take my mind off this crappy week, with a visit to the casino.. I went to see him yesterday morning for brunch.
He told me not to drive myself crazy about the situation with the 100 man law firm. He also said that he wants to see me "Enjoy life", and, begin to interact with, and date women. Easy for him to say. I cant just take my mind off the situation with the law firm.. or suddenly feel like I want to date, just because he says so. Oh, of course, I see women, and think about them.. all the time.,. its just , right now doesn't seem like the right time.
My speech, while better, is still shaky. In fact, the therapist and I are going to practice cold calling tomorrow.
I really want to see what ends up happening with work, before attempting to date. I don't think it is fair to myself.. or any potential female, no matter how patient, nice, understanding.. or ticklish she would be, for me to be with someone, when I'm in this frame of mind. .
I went to the casino with Barney for dinner, and played just a little bit.
This morning, I did what I wanted.. went to the casino at the time I always go.. (10am), and things went.. very well. thank you, after a huge scare.
I was far down.. at my favorite type of penny machine. Then, the free games came up, and a big jackpot, to bring me all the way back, and ahead. After that.. I went to the horses, and won two moderate size trifectas. I walked away today winning over $200, my best day in a long time. I'm going to do my best to stay away now until next weekend, as my friend Adam is supposed to visit from Friday to Sunday. I will go with him.
I hope this week will be quiet. My dad is away with Cheryl for several days, and the situation with the law firm.. is supposedly on hold for a week or two. It would be nice to rest after the difficulties, and drama, of the past couple of weeks.
He told me not to drive myself crazy about the situation with the 100 man law firm. He also said that he wants to see me "Enjoy life", and, begin to interact with, and date women. Easy for him to say. I cant just take my mind off the situation with the law firm.. or suddenly feel like I want to date, just because he says so. Oh, of course, I see women, and think about them.. all the time.,. its just , right now doesn't seem like the right time.
My speech, while better, is still shaky. In fact, the therapist and I are going to practice cold calling tomorrow.
I really want to see what ends up happening with work, before attempting to date. I don't think it is fair to myself.. or any potential female, no matter how patient, nice, understanding.. or ticklish she would be, for me to be with someone, when I'm in this frame of mind. .
I went to the casino with Barney for dinner, and played just a little bit.
This morning, I did what I wanted.. went to the casino at the time I always go.. (10am), and things went.. very well. thank you, after a huge scare.
I was far down.. at my favorite type of penny machine. Then, the free games came up, and a big jackpot, to bring me all the way back, and ahead. After that.. I went to the horses, and won two moderate size trifectas. I walked away today winning over $200, my best day in a long time. I'm going to do my best to stay away now until next weekend, as my friend Adam is supposed to visit from Friday to Sunday. I will go with him.
I hope this week will be quiet. My dad is away with Cheryl for several days, and the situation with the law firm.. is supposedly on hold for a week or two. It would be nice to rest after the difficulties, and drama, of the past couple of weeks.
