So, let's recap: I'm an asshole. That about sums it up.
After a conflict a few weeks ago, I had to find another place to live. I'll be staying with some friends temporarily while I gather up myself and go into this wild world on my own.
I've also been studying some of the intricate details of relationships in all it's forms. I've realized that I shouldn't blame myself so much for what has happened. To coin an old cliche, it takes two to tango. We both did our fair share of making trouble for each other. With the help I'm getting, I have higher hopes for myself. I'm also seeing an improvement in my overall mood and confidence.
Right now, the last thing I need or want is a romantic relationship with anyone. I'm finding myself, and my self-improvements are running just fine. I have found faith in a religion I feel comfortable with, and I have a greater desire to create rather than destroy.
My ex and I are also getting along. We've spent some time together, talking and laughing when we can. It feels good to have her in my life. I would have never forgiven myself if I had obliterated our ties together.
What remains to be seen is tomorrow, and the next day, and so on. Each day will bring me closer to my ultimate goal. I won't allow myself to give up anymore.
After a conflict a few weeks ago, I had to find another place to live. I'll be staying with some friends temporarily while I gather up myself and go into this wild world on my own.
I've also been studying some of the intricate details of relationships in all it's forms. I've realized that I shouldn't blame myself so much for what has happened. To coin an old cliche, it takes two to tango. We both did our fair share of making trouble for each other. With the help I'm getting, I have higher hopes for myself. I'm also seeing an improvement in my overall mood and confidence.
Right now, the last thing I need or want is a romantic relationship with anyone. I'm finding myself, and my self-improvements are running just fine. I have found faith in a religion I feel comfortable with, and I have a greater desire to create rather than destroy.
My ex and I are also getting along. We've spent some time together, talking and laughing when we can. It feels good to have her in my life. I would have never forgiven myself if I had obliterated our ties together.
What remains to be seen is tomorrow, and the next day, and so on. Each day will bring me closer to my ultimate goal. I won't allow myself to give up anymore.
