Soo..
After the now seemingly trivial crap that I posted yesterday, I REALLY got my ass kicked today.
I saw Maria.. and we talked.. for .. hours.. until the manager of the restaurant she works in, literally gave me the glare to get the fuck out.
I shouldn't even be posting this.. but.. I found out.. that.. Maria REALLY cares for me.. and WANTS to be with me, except for a couple of little problems.
One, and I didn't know this until today. She told me that she has essentially a "Friends With Benefits" relationship with a guy, who treats her like shit. When I used that term, she didn't even refer to it as that. All she said is. "We have .. sex.. but I don't love him. " After that, she was like "If I was going to be with anyone,. I'd want to be with you, but I don't even want us to go out on an "official date", because I fear that you would have "expectations", and I don't want to hurt you.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
Also, she is likely leaving.. to transfer to a restaurant in the company shes in, closer to her house, which would be.. an hour away. As she said, if we were to be together.. that wouldn't present a barrier.
She has my number, and my email. She just seems.. afraid to make the move.
After this, and getting bounced from the restaurant, because I was there too long.. I felt like shit.. My dad called, and announced a good sale he helped me make. I didn't sound too enthusiastic, which I know was wrong, so I had to email him, and explain, without.,. really explaining.
Maria told me about a horrible name her "Friend with benefits" called her.. A SIMPLETON. I was like.. "Can I please kick his ass for you"
I really don't think my relatives understand. My aunt the artist told me to forget about Maria.. get things settled, and look for someone else. The thing is.. Maria and I know everything about each other. The only thing she doesn't know about me, is my fetishes, and this forum, because I don't want to scare her away. I have a feeling she would be okay with it, if we were to go the serious route.
This was the capper of my bad day yesterday.
With her leaving, who knows what will be now?
Then this weekend, my aunt gave me the whole speech of "Shes 49, she cant give you kids.. your mom would want you to find someone younger". Its like.. thanks.. use mom as guilt to make me feel worse. If Maria was the right person, I don't need natural kids, I could adopt.. or not have them.
Chances are, it wont progress. I'm going to have to focus on how to get the business going.. more friends., and.,. starting from scratch again with another girl.
As for my relatives, they seriously don't understand.
After the now seemingly trivial crap that I posted yesterday, I REALLY got my ass kicked today.
I saw Maria.. and we talked.. for .. hours.. until the manager of the restaurant she works in, literally gave me the glare to get the fuck out.
I shouldn't even be posting this.. but.. I found out.. that.. Maria REALLY cares for me.. and WANTS to be with me, except for a couple of little problems.
One, and I didn't know this until today. She told me that she has essentially a "Friends With Benefits" relationship with a guy, who treats her like shit. When I used that term, she didn't even refer to it as that. All she said is. "We have .. sex.. but I don't love him. " After that, she was like "If I was going to be with anyone,. I'd want to be with you, but I don't even want us to go out on an "official date", because I fear that you would have "expectations", and I don't want to hurt you.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
Also, she is likely leaving.. to transfer to a restaurant in the company shes in, closer to her house, which would be.. an hour away. As she said, if we were to be together.. that wouldn't present a barrier.
She has my number, and my email. She just seems.. afraid to make the move.
After this, and getting bounced from the restaurant, because I was there too long.. I felt like shit.. My dad called, and announced a good sale he helped me make. I didn't sound too enthusiastic, which I know was wrong, so I had to email him, and explain, without.,. really explaining.
Maria told me about a horrible name her "Friend with benefits" called her.. A SIMPLETON. I was like.. "Can I please kick his ass for you"
I really don't think my relatives understand. My aunt the artist told me to forget about Maria.. get things settled, and look for someone else. The thing is.. Maria and I know everything about each other. The only thing she doesn't know about me, is my fetishes, and this forum, because I don't want to scare her away. I have a feeling she would be okay with it, if we were to go the serious route.
This was the capper of my bad day yesterday.
With her leaving, who knows what will be now?
Then this weekend, my aunt gave me the whole speech of "Shes 49, she cant give you kids.. your mom would want you to find someone younger". Its like.. thanks.. use mom as guilt to make me feel worse. If Maria was the right person, I don't need natural kids, I could adopt.. or not have them.
Chances are, it wont progress. I'm going to have to focus on how to get the business going.. more friends., and.,. starting from scratch again with another girl.
As for my relatives, they seriously don't understand.
