I know that this will never, ever happen, but something came to me last night.
With as isolated as my mom and I sometimes were when we lived in Lancaster, there was one good thing.
We didn't have the extended family voices telling us how to live our lives.
Sheila and Mitch ran away to Lancaster in 1999.. largely because of cost of living.
However.. I wont be lying if I didn't say it was nice not to have to deal with family bullshit.
I'm frankly fed up with both of my maternal aunts. From my aunt the artist telling me I have to "Forget about everything".
Last night she was laying a guilt trip on me about how I'm not sending my aunt the astrologer money.
I have given THOUSANDS to both of these bitches.
My aunt the astrologer, btw, only calls me, when she wants money, and is never in touch otherwise. .
What I really would have wanted today, would have been to have spent Thanksgiving with my dad alone.. sans all the family bullshit and their voices, telling me how to live my life. Many of these people, are happy I lost Aflac.
That's the difference between my mom and my father. If my mom was alive, and she knew I had just sustained such a setback.. and was feeling so badly, and didn't want to be around people who had been rude to me, she would have blown off the extended family gathering, and spent it with her son alone.
I'll give thanks today, for the food I have on the table, my apartment, and hope for my relatives good health, even when they do irritate me.
For those on the forum who think "Spoiled brat, you live off your father in your $2000 a month apartment".
Anyone who thinks that really doesn't get me at all.
That is what is killing me so much.. that I was in a field, where I potentially could have made enough money, to have taken care of this place.
It is not. nor was it ever, my goal to "Live Off" my dad.
Hopefully something will happen with a temp job next week, but I need to think beyond that.
For now, I have to get through today.
Thanksgiving was always my mom's favorite holiday. I hope that she and the grandparents I loved so much, are having a wonderful holiday on the other side. I miss them every day.
I wish all of my friends a Happy Thanksgiving.
I hope that next Thanksgiving.., something good will have happened, in the way of work/business, etc, to cause me to feel better.
With as isolated as my mom and I sometimes were when we lived in Lancaster, there was one good thing.
We didn't have the extended family voices telling us how to live our lives.
Sheila and Mitch ran away to Lancaster in 1999.. largely because of cost of living.
However.. I wont be lying if I didn't say it was nice not to have to deal with family bullshit.
I'm frankly fed up with both of my maternal aunts. From my aunt the artist telling me I have to "Forget about everything".
Last night she was laying a guilt trip on me about how I'm not sending my aunt the astrologer money.
I have given THOUSANDS to both of these bitches.
My aunt the astrologer, btw, only calls me, when she wants money, and is never in touch otherwise. .
What I really would have wanted today, would have been to have spent Thanksgiving with my dad alone.. sans all the family bullshit and their voices, telling me how to live my life. Many of these people, are happy I lost Aflac.
That's the difference between my mom and my father. If my mom was alive, and she knew I had just sustained such a setback.. and was feeling so badly, and didn't want to be around people who had been rude to me, she would have blown off the extended family gathering, and spent it with her son alone.
I'll give thanks today, for the food I have on the table, my apartment, and hope for my relatives good health, even when they do irritate me.
For those on the forum who think "Spoiled brat, you live off your father in your $2000 a month apartment".
Anyone who thinks that really doesn't get me at all.
That is what is killing me so much.. that I was in a field, where I potentially could have made enough money, to have taken care of this place.
It is not. nor was it ever, my goal to "Live Off" my dad.
Hopefully something will happen with a temp job next week, but I need to think beyond that.
For now, I have to get through today.
Thanksgiving was always my mom's favorite holiday. I hope that she and the grandparents I loved so much, are having a wonderful holiday on the other side. I miss them every day.
I wish all of my friends a Happy Thanksgiving.
I hope that next Thanksgiving.., something good will have happened, in the way of work/business, etc, to cause me to feel better.
