Before I start this entry, let me make perfectly clear that the title of this entry is NOT anything about my contemplating suicide, etc. Just the opposite, in fact. Things are.. so chaotic and uncertain in my life, that I cant pull the trigger to ask a girl out, whose clearly been flirting with me for several weeks.
I go to this place,, twice a week,.. the one Maria used to work at, but has now left.. as I've posted.
The last few times I've gone there, this waitress. Kristen.. keeps talking to me, going "Hi, Mitch", and asking how I am.
Beyond a couple of "I'm fines", and such, she always seems busy, and hasn't really stopped to talk to me. Usually, when I go there, my mind is on the latest work thing that happened, as. between a few things that I have to on a regular basis, and a potentially very big thing, coming up in a few weeks, that I don't even want to contemplate, because I don't want to jinx it, I'm just holding my breath about work.
Let me be clear.. I WANT to ask this girl out.. it's just.. I wish she would actually stop to talk to me for more than just a few words. Maybe.. being a waitress. she's busier than Maria was.. being the hostess, and Kristen cant.
I have no idea of her age, her interests, anything about her. I've never gone out on a date with a girl.. without having some inkling about her, except once when I was in college, my mom set me up on a blind date with a friend';s daughter.. who was still in HS, but "Legal" (18, when I was 21) that turned out to be a disaster.
Big GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
I don't know what to do.
Slowly. I am coming back to myself.. in that.. I go to/watch baseball games now with interest, the way I used to, and I'm falling in love with history and politics again.
It just doesn't seem like the right time.
Then I think..
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The work thing.. is several weeks away.. If it happens, I'm going to be flying from the rafters, and undertaking a lot more responsibility. If it doesn't.. I'm going to be.. very upset at best.
The worst Kristen could say if I ask her is no.. or. if I take her out on a date.. it could just not go well.
For those who may laugh when they read this entry.,. remember.. its been a long time since I've liked someone who may be free, and who was flirting with me.
I'm pissed at myself. I WANT to. I just cant bring myself to do it.
GRRRRRRRRRRR!
I go to this place,, twice a week,.. the one Maria used to work at, but has now left.. as I've posted.
The last few times I've gone there, this waitress. Kristen.. keeps talking to me, going "Hi, Mitch", and asking how I am.
Beyond a couple of "I'm fines", and such, she always seems busy, and hasn't really stopped to talk to me. Usually, when I go there, my mind is on the latest work thing that happened, as. between a few things that I have to on a regular basis, and a potentially very big thing, coming up in a few weeks, that I don't even want to contemplate, because I don't want to jinx it, I'm just holding my breath about work.
Let me be clear.. I WANT to ask this girl out.. it's just.. I wish she would actually stop to talk to me for more than just a few words. Maybe.. being a waitress. she's busier than Maria was.. being the hostess, and Kristen cant.
I have no idea of her age, her interests, anything about her. I've never gone out on a date with a girl.. without having some inkling about her, except once when I was in college, my mom set me up on a blind date with a friend';s daughter.. who was still in HS, but "Legal" (18, when I was 21) that turned out to be a disaster.
Big GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
I don't know what to do.
Slowly. I am coming back to myself.. in that.. I go to/watch baseball games now with interest, the way I used to, and I'm falling in love with history and politics again.
It just doesn't seem like the right time.
Then I think..
'
The work thing.. is several weeks away.. If it happens, I'm going to be flying from the rafters, and undertaking a lot more responsibility. If it doesn't.. I'm going to be.. very upset at best.
The worst Kristen could say if I ask her is no.. or. if I take her out on a date.. it could just not go well.
For those who may laugh when they read this entry.,. remember.. its been a long time since I've liked someone who may be free, and who was flirting with me.
I'm pissed at myself. I WANT to. I just cant bring myself to do it.
GRRRRRRRRRRR!
