During a bit of retrospection yesterday I took a look at my life as it is now.
Yeah I have a lot of things I never had before. I feel financially secure, I have a lot of friends, I have a lot of nice things. I have a life that many I know are envious of. Including my friends that are married and such. They see me living the "sweet single life" as they call it. Having play sessions with college girls, going out where ever I want and pretty much doing what I want. They think I have such a great life.
However, I think they have the better end of deal. They have someone to share their lives with. They have a companion, they have their family with them. Their closest friends live in their area. For me, 3 of my longest and best friends live in South Dakota, Maryland and North Carolina. All of my other great friends live all across the US, so I can only see them on rare occasions like NEST or NHLee.
Also, I am constant pain. Something that certainly inhibits how much life I can enjoy. I'd love to fly to West Coast, visit people more often, vacation to Hawaii, go out more often, have more play sessions than about the 1 a week I get. So how great of a life do I really have.
Lastly, my children. During this recent snow here in Athens, GA I noticed all the other kids having fun and playing. And I looked around me house and realized how empty it was. I am alone pretty much 5 days a week. I miss my children. I have their pictures and things around me. I talk to them pretty much everyday, but I still miss them. And without them my life is mundane.
For all the things I may have, I lack a companion and the most precious things in the world (my world) are not with me...my children.
So I guess like the title says, it is possible to have it all and nothing at the same time.
Rob
Yeah I have a lot of things I never had before. I feel financially secure, I have a lot of friends, I have a lot of nice things. I have a life that many I know are envious of. Including my friends that are married and such. They see me living the "sweet single life" as they call it. Having play sessions with college girls, going out where ever I want and pretty much doing what I want. They think I have such a great life.
However, I think they have the better end of deal. They have someone to share their lives with. They have a companion, they have their family with them. Their closest friends live in their area. For me, 3 of my longest and best friends live in South Dakota, Maryland and North Carolina. All of my other great friends live all across the US, so I can only see them on rare occasions like NEST or NHLee.
Also, I am constant pain. Something that certainly inhibits how much life I can enjoy. I'd love to fly to West Coast, visit people more often, vacation to Hawaii, go out more often, have more play sessions than about the 1 a week I get. So how great of a life do I really have.
Lastly, my children. During this recent snow here in Athens, GA I noticed all the other kids having fun and playing. And I looked around me house and realized how empty it was. I am alone pretty much 5 days a week. I miss my children. I have their pictures and things around me. I talk to them pretty much everyday, but I still miss them. And without them my life is mundane.
For all the things I may have, I lack a companion and the most precious things in the world (my world) are not with me...my children.
So I guess like the title says, it is possible to have it all and nothing at the same time.
Rob
