The last 24 hours have been horrible, filled with abuse. I'm absolutely fed up with everyone in my real life, personally, except for my friend Adam, and if I was in a position to do so,.. would tell every one of them to go fuck themselves forever. Simply put, they are all a bunch of abusive, controlling assholes.
It started last night with Barney. As I've posted, he has been spending very little time with me lately, choosing instead to see his friend Paul religiously every two weeks. I had it out with him the other day on the phone. I've won some money at the casino this weekend, so I decided to be a nice friend and treat him to dinner last night.
Barney showed his appreciation by again telling me he was seeing Paul this upcoming weekend, and then basically blowing me off for the weekend after. When I expressed my anger, he made it like I was crazy. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with him lately, but.. he just doesn't want to spend time with me. We've been friends over 20 years, and he lives in my complex. I would like not to have to end the friendship.
Then.. my aunt the artist. As I've posted before.. this is a woman who rants on about her life, constantly, while blowing off and sloughing over anyone else's problems. When I told her how Barney acted this weekend, and how my father reacted to it, (Which I will get to in a second) She blew it off, saying she cant think or talk about anything but her own life. Fine. I hung up on her, and told her I will never tell her anything about myself again. Let her figure out her own life.
My father:
All is fine.. so long as Mitch is a good little boy, saying and doing everything my father says, like a little child. As long as I kiss the asses of those he tells me to.;. I go to the gym, (Which is all he talks about)_, and follow what he wants, all is fine. I'm not allowed to feel anything. He blows up for no reason, if I don't say exactly what he thinks I should. This morning when I told him that I was upset about how Barney acts, and that I want to try to avoid having to end another 20 year friendship, after what happened with my ex best friend after 20 plus years, my father exploded, telling me to "Put up or shut up", and then slammed the phone. This, from someone who rants on about my mom, who is dead.
If I could have one wish, it would be to have a successful business, pay my father every last penny he laid out for this apartment, and tell him, and all the troublesome relatives, and friends, to go fuck themselves forever. My father is a man who does, and always has done, exactly what he wants, even if it was detrimental to me. His attitude is shameful, especially because I never interfere with his life, I never pass judgement on how he lives, and I spend very little time with him.
Work should be quiet this week, and I'm supposed to go see my friend Adam. Hopefully all will be quiet this week.
This is all pathetic. Seriously put, fuck all these people.
It started last night with Barney. As I've posted, he has been spending very little time with me lately, choosing instead to see his friend Paul religiously every two weeks. I had it out with him the other day on the phone. I've won some money at the casino this weekend, so I decided to be a nice friend and treat him to dinner last night.
Barney showed his appreciation by again telling me he was seeing Paul this upcoming weekend, and then basically blowing me off for the weekend after. When I expressed my anger, he made it like I was crazy. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with him lately, but.. he just doesn't want to spend time with me. We've been friends over 20 years, and he lives in my complex. I would like not to have to end the friendship.
Then.. my aunt the artist. As I've posted before.. this is a woman who rants on about her life, constantly, while blowing off and sloughing over anyone else's problems. When I told her how Barney acted this weekend, and how my father reacted to it, (Which I will get to in a second) She blew it off, saying she cant think or talk about anything but her own life. Fine. I hung up on her, and told her I will never tell her anything about myself again. Let her figure out her own life.
My father:
All is fine.. so long as Mitch is a good little boy, saying and doing everything my father says, like a little child. As long as I kiss the asses of those he tells me to.;. I go to the gym, (Which is all he talks about)_, and follow what he wants, all is fine. I'm not allowed to feel anything. He blows up for no reason, if I don't say exactly what he thinks I should. This morning when I told him that I was upset about how Barney acts, and that I want to try to avoid having to end another 20 year friendship, after what happened with my ex best friend after 20 plus years, my father exploded, telling me to "Put up or shut up", and then slammed the phone. This, from someone who rants on about my mom, who is dead.
If I could have one wish, it would be to have a successful business, pay my father every last penny he laid out for this apartment, and tell him, and all the troublesome relatives, and friends, to go fuck themselves forever. My father is a man who does, and always has done, exactly what he wants, even if it was detrimental to me. His attitude is shameful, especially because I never interfere with his life, I never pass judgement on how he lives, and I spend very little time with him.
Work should be quiet this week, and I'm supposed to go see my friend Adam. Hopefully all will be quiet this week.
This is all pathetic. Seriously put, fuck all these people.
