Working on me

I gained some weight back when my dog passed away. So for the last couple months I have finally gotten back to my usual 4 hour workouts. My butt, legs, and stomach is looking amazing again. Still I won't be posting any new pics or videos until after my birthday in July. I think lol. I just want to feel really good about myself before I add anything new. I was the recipient of some vicious hate mail and comments on some of my videos. I never want to question again how I look or how I feel about myself. And while I can't imagine the Internet changing to fit my needs... I can only work to rebuild my self confidence. I think losing my dog made me feel ten times more vulnerable to these things. Not having him or a dog in my life... the world feels, to me, that much colder. But I will again and so for now I'm watching lots of animal shows like Spy Pod and love seeing adorable videos of all animals.

My computer also still has not been fixed. I myself still don't know how Silver State Pt 4 is going to end. But since there is no way to properly work on it... I can't allow myself to think about it. Once I have the flow if I can't jot it down the way I need to... I worry it won't come out right. And I worked too hard on the previous installments to just... I'm sure you understand. I do have plans to make an audio file of the @Midnight RP I co wrote. I have an audio program downloaded to my phone. But even that I don't know when now I can get to. I hope to very soon. I will also look in on the tickling forum I started today. Please feel free to post without me.

Tickles and love

Doll