Hmm, 2009 has been an interesting year to the say the least.
In February I met a wonderful, sweet guy whom I fell in love with. Though things ended rather painfully, he was my first love and I don't regret anything. I'm thankful to him because before him, I honestly didn't think I'd ever find someone who could love me. He loved me; he saw beyond my looks. I've realized that there are men out there who don't care about looks and will love me for who I am.
Over the summer, I started getting more active on the forum in the form of reaching out to people. I've made more friends than I ever thought possible. It has changed my whole experience on the forum. I started talking to and befriended people I once thought unapproachable. I used to be afraid to PM someone because I thought I would say something so stupid that the person would never want to respond back.
For one thing, it's gotten easier to send someone a PM. I'm not so afraid anymore. I still get a little nervous, but it's a lot better than how I was before. Secondly, people on here are honestly very approachable. They don't bite. Lol. I kinda wish I did this sooner, but things happen in their own time. I'm glad I took the chance. The friends I've made and the friends I will make is its own reward. Truly. 
2009 has had its tough moments but overall it's been good to me. I look forward to what 2010 will bring.
For one, and I've talked about before, that my goal for 2010 is to go to a gathering. I'll continue saving up money and hopefully when November comes around I'll be going to Bella's Birthday Bash. Going to a gathering will be, I think, the culmination of my evolution on TMF. It'll be a huge step for me. One because I've never traveled anywhere on my own before. Two because I've never been good at social gatherings.
Just the thought of going makes me nervous, mainly because I'm scared of the unknown. I'm scared that no one will like me. I'm scared that I won't have fun. Doing something for the first time is incredibly scary because there are so many unknowns, but I'm not going to let it stop me from going.
Another goal, slightly smaller because I'm going to take it one step at a time, is to refocus on losing weight. I seriously fell off the wagon and thankfully I've maintained my current weight, but I really need to make an effort for my health. It'll be hard but I'm going to start exercising again. My mom's got this glider machine that I'll start using again for a little bit until I get up to 30 minutes a day. Then when it gets nice outside, go for walks.
I've also read Jeff's blog about how he lost weight and I plan on using it as a reference to work on what I eat and the calories I consume. I think my biggest hurdle is to not eat when I'm bored.
So goodbye 2009. I've learned quite a bit about myself and I've grown a lot as a person. Thank you to the amazing friends I've made on TMF. I love you all.
Here's hoping that 2010 will be an awesome year for all of us. 
In February I met a wonderful, sweet guy whom I fell in love with. Though things ended rather painfully, he was my first love and I don't regret anything. I'm thankful to him because before him, I honestly didn't think I'd ever find someone who could love me. He loved me; he saw beyond my looks. I've realized that there are men out there who don't care about looks and will love me for who I am.
Over the summer, I started getting more active on the forum in the form of reaching out to people. I've made more friends than I ever thought possible. It has changed my whole experience on the forum. I started talking to and befriended people I once thought unapproachable. I used to be afraid to PM someone because I thought I would say something so stupid that the person would never want to respond back.
For one thing, it's gotten easier to send someone a PM. I'm not so afraid anymore. I still get a little nervous, but it's a lot better than how I was before. Secondly, people on here are honestly very approachable. They don't bite. Lol.
I kinda wish I did this sooner, but things happen in their own time. I'm glad I took the chance. The friends I've made and the friends I will make is its own reward. Truly. 2009 has had its tough moments but overall it's been good to me. I look forward to what 2010 will bring.
For one, and I've talked about before, that my goal for 2010 is to go to a gathering. I'll continue saving up money and hopefully when November comes around I'll be going to Bella's Birthday Bash. Going to a gathering will be, I think, the culmination of my evolution on TMF. It'll be a huge step for me. One because I've never traveled anywhere on my own before. Two because I've never been good at social gatherings.
Just the thought of going makes me nervous, mainly because I'm scared of the unknown. I'm scared that no one will like me. I'm scared that I won't have fun. Doing something for the first time is incredibly scary because there are so many unknowns, but I'm not going to let it stop me from going.
Another goal, slightly smaller because I'm going to take it one step at a time, is to refocus on losing weight. I seriously fell off the wagon and thankfully I've maintained my current weight, but I really need to make an effort for my health. It'll be hard but I'm going to start exercising again. My mom's got this glider machine that I'll start using again for a little bit until I get up to 30 minutes a day. Then when it gets nice outside, go for walks.
I've also read Jeff's blog about how he lost weight and I plan on using it as a reference to work on what I eat and the calories I consume. I think my biggest hurdle is to not eat when I'm bored.
So goodbye 2009. I've learned quite a bit about myself and I've grown a lot as a person. Thank you to the amazing friends I've made on TMF. I love you all.
Here's hoping that 2010 will be an awesome year for all of us. 
