Well Jenn.....unfortunately and much to my disappointment I had said "I love you" to a couple people I didn't really love before I knew what love really meant...to me anyway...but I suppose when I did say it then it reflected the amount of feeling I had or at least how I best knew to express it....and in as much as I knew about myself I guess I believed I did love them...I just knew that it never felt like it was supposed to...know what I mean?....I mean, men will laugh at that because it's such a girl thing and so idealistically romantic but we just know what it is supposed to feel like and we may not know what that feels like yet but we sure know what it doesn't feel like....or when it's missing...(I know, I have to make everything so complicated...lol)
But, now that I have pre-qualified my response...lol...I will respond...The first person I ever truly loved (and still do) is a member here....I met him online, he approached me as a result of something I had in my aol profile about "not tickling my feet or you'll die"...lol...and that was before I knew anything about tickling fetishes, that I have one or that there are other people that think about it....lol.
He and I chatted and tickled on and off line (by phone) the entire day that we met....he was the first person , as I said, I had ever talked to about this and I was blown away by the connection we had....so many times in my life men had told me they felt a connection with me and I would feel so bad because I didn't feel that way....but with this guy it was so profound.....(I'm getting to the point...lol)
We were talking just a few evenings after we had met and he said he didn't want to freak me out or anything and he hoped I didn't hang up but that he thought he loved me.....I was so blown away because I had never felt anything that strong and I just knew it had to be love because I could not stop thinking of him....I was so happy...I thought he was the most amazing guy I had ever met....and I said "Well, I hope I don't freak you out or that you hang up on me either but I think I love you as well."
And we were together for 7 years....and we're still the best of friends and we still love eachother...The end....lol