Honestly... It is a little, but this whole thing has always been akward for me... You're comfortable with how you feel about all this and where you fit in though, so hopefully the akwardness will go away soon.. For me, it was more about the relief of not having to hide this site from him.. He knows I don't come here for the "fetish" aspect of things, I come here cause i've made some amazing friends!! - Goodluck with everything, if you need anything, don't hesitate to pm!!