Oh, no, I was referring more to the fun, playful type. 🙂 And we're sorta in the same boat. The only person I've ever had the courage to actually tell my fetish to is my current girlfriend, and since it's a long-distance thing, we had first gotten around to having fun with it this past summer. Up until then, I didn't even know where all my spots were or anything like that. Was pretty depressing, all those years without anything to relate to. *shrugs*
But yeah, it's almost like finding diamonds in a mine. Once one pops out at you, it's like a rush of excitement and adreneline - a few-minute freak-out, and that woozy, giddy feeling for a long time afterward - but then it's back to drifting aimlessly in that dark, dusty mine, wondering when the next diamond will appear.
Thank goodness for sites like this! Not anywhere near as good as the real thing, of course, but at least we can take a more...err..."educational" approach to the subject. And learn about tickle machines. xD Haha...