I wasn't sure exactly what you meant behind that, though. Awful that it's like that for me, awful that that happened to me, or awful that I feel that way - as in, it's not really "right" that I do?
I'm not upset, I'm just a little confused. I ask a lot of questions, sometimes. 😱
I never said she didn't realize it both times......
The first time, she did, hence the fact that my biological father went to prison. The second time, she thought it was just my subconscious playing tricks on me, and she didn't believe me until just recently, when she kicked my stepfather out. She might get back together with him in the future - still loves him - but by then I will be living on my own, so what she does with whomever doesn't matter to me because I will not be around.