Phil.. if I may.. for a minute.
I've been here a long time.. nearly ten years. You say in your farewell post.. "Thanks to those who I made friends with", and also, "So much for the people being non judgemental".
Two questions enter my mind: One.. do you still enjoy the idea of tickling, talking about it, and learning about it? You say you have "guilt". I think all of us feel that emotion about an interest like this. The question is.. is the guilt you feel.. worth throwing away an interest you may still have?
Second.. to the person or people who you feel were "judging you". To allow those people to chase you off the forum.. is.. to me.. regrettable. Such is the purpose of the ignore button. If I allowed everyone on this forum who "judged me" or said negative things about me.. to drive me off the forum, I'd have been gone nine years ago. I have tried to learn to direct my attention toward those who are civil to me, ignore those who arent civil, and try to avoid posting certain subjects in the main forum.
Ultimately, it is your decision, of course, but, if you enjoy any aspects of the forum, or people on this forum, I'd encourage you to stay, and try to work through the issues you're feeling.
Whatever you decide, Good Luck to you.
Mitch