Joja...
I've been sitting here thinking of a million and one things to say and they all sound trite, rhetorical, cliched and inane (some things never change). So sod what's in my mind, I'll just say what's in my heart and try not to ramble on beyond five thousand words.
There was a guy who was crippled with multiple tumours, including one huge one that had virtually enclosed his liver. He had literally a week or two left. One day his General Practicioner suggests taking part in an experimental trial of a new drug that was clinically unproven and just out of the lab.
"I can't promise anything, but it looks like medical dynamite" to paraphrase the doc.
Within two weeks the tumours were a third gone, within two months he was on the threshold of remission. The specialist department were grinning their faces off. Then the doc calls him and asks to see him. Very graven faced he informs his patient that the drug has now been proven to be only a tenth as useful as they'd hoped and for a problem as severe as his had been there was unfortunately no hope. Two or three days later the guy died.
The moral of this story is that mental attitude and what the medical profession rather misguidedly calls the "placebo effect" are more powerful than any drug yet invented, or probably ever will be.
Lady, you've got more 'tude than billions of other people and if anyone can kick the bastard illness's arse out into the ocean it's you. I don't care what you do to harness it: pray daily, say "ohm" a lot, dance naked in a wooded grove, spank your inner moppet, whatever... You can beat it and retire it's ass. If anyone has got the power, you have. People have come back from six bouts of illness and remission and still lived, more than you'd think. You have a lot to live for, so bloody live, however long you can! Live now like you've never lived before and give this thing the biggest kicking and screaming match it's ever had in it's history.
I have faith in you hun. You can do it and do it with style. Prove that miserable bugger of a doctor wrong and re-write medical history. You can do it!
All my faith,
Jim
