so, its over i guess. im done talking with her. i sent her i think a total of three messages. i feel better in the fact that she now feels worse. and im ok with that.
i got some bit of closure. she lied to me about something immensly important and overwhelming at my age i would think. and after two years i know that it was just all a hoax to be able to hop off what anyones dick and onto someone elses with little or no actual reason for wanting to break up. i feel robbed.
i feel like a 3 year relationship was all for nothing and not a damn word she said had any sincerity to it. i feel weak in myself for going so far in on her, and putting so much of my emotional self into her for purposeful gain. only to be left with a lie and my heartbroken.
and thank you to everyone who contributed! it was much appreciated!