Tickling in Satanic Ritual Abuse

[desertkruzr]

Hello, this is actually my first post here, although I've been checking out the forum for about a year now.

I was wondering if anyone else here had any experience or knowledge of tickling being used as part of satanic ritual abuse. I personally have had a lot of experience with this being done to me, both as a very small child, and as a young adult.

Some people reading this are probably saying "God, I wish that would happen to me!". And on one level, I can relate to that. Because these experiences left in me the deep seated need to be sexually submissive, and NOTHING gets me more sexually excited than to have a dominant woman tie me down, sit on me, and tickle me completely senseless.

However, the initial experiences were absolutely terrifying. During these rituals, which started when I was 2 or 3 years old, several adults wearing very demonic looking masks pinned my arms and legs to the floor, while others relentlessly tickled me for what seemed like an eternity. They were also doing some sort of chanting while this was going on. I would eventually pass out, or disassociate from the trauma (I was extremely ticklish then, and still am).

Going through all of this left me very psychologically scarred as a child and adolescent, which eventually led to drug abuse, and criminal activities.

Over the years, as I have put the pieces together and begun to heal, I have tried to find out information about this, but there seems to be very little written about tickling being used in magical rituals and satanism, except in the novels by Robin Wilde, which I am currently reading.

I currently have a true love/hate relationship with being tickled. On the one hand, I'm completely obsessed with it, and nothing turns me on more, as I said. On the other hand, (ironically) engaging in this activity seems to pull back a lot of the residual effects of the trauma (feelings of low self esteem, distrust of others, etc.)

Does anyone else here have any experience with this, or any knowledge about it?

Thanks in advance if you can contribute something.

 

[TklDuo-Ann]

Tickling as a ritual isn't something I have experience with. But, having it used as a part of sexual abuse is. I've struggled with a variety of issues related to it over the years. I'm not sure if that's an angle you're comfortable persuing in public. If so, cool. If not, feel free to PM me.

If you'd be more comfortable knowing a bit about my own background before responding, you can check this thread and the article link I shared in it. Just know that you aren't alone!

 

[Sandrock74]

I don't know....this seems fishy to me.

 

[BlondeWitch]

I am not a Satanist, but I know some, and none of them were inclined to do this sort of thing at ALL. If this is what you experienced, I am sorry to hear it.

I do have experience being abused with tickling, just not as part of a ritual. I'm not certain why non-con tickling of a child would have been considered an asset to any ritual really, to me it sounds more like they were inflicting another form of abuse, and perhaps covering their faces just to keep you from remembering who it was. There may be more to this than you're remembering. Don't go there unless you are prepared to recall things that might disturb you considerably. On the other hand, knowing the whole story could help you come to terms with some behaviour you're exhibiting for reasons you don't yet understand.

Does that make sense?

You could be right Sandrock, but I never discount anything in this nutter of a world.

 

[sole experience]

Maybe there is something satanic about enjoying overstimulating another person until they beg for mercy. If so, pass the pitchfork!

 

[BlondeWitch]

LOL@Sole Experience....if we're talking about adults, then pass it on indeed.

 

[Redmage]

Satanic ritual abuse is one of the most thoroughly debunked alleged phenomena in modern times. See the FBI's Report and other indications.

 

[Ace Riley]

This world isn't cool enough for satanic tickling rituals sorry. 😛

 

[Sandrock74]

I still don't believe this post. Its like one of those posts by someone who joins, makes one post of a questionable nature and then they are never heard from again.

Besides, who has ACCURATE memories from 2-3 years old?? If anything, this sounds more like something from a nightmare brought on by a scary movie that was seen at a too young age.

Also, since this contains something that happened to a minor, shouldn't this post be deleted?

Thats my opinions and (maybe) not yours. 🙂

 

[The Sean Man]

I still don't believe this post. Its like one of those posts by someone who joins, makes one post of a questionable nature and then they are never heard from again.

Yyyyyeah! Pretty far-out for a first time post😕

 

[desertkruzr]

Thanks to all who responded in a supportive manner. TklDuo-Ann, thanks for the offer to email privately about this. I just may take you up on that.

To those who responded with skepticism and doubt about the authenticity of this post, believe me, I completely understand. One of the reasons that I waited over a year to even ask the question was my sense that most people would find this very hard to believe, and would probably just make jokes, etc.

If it is truly felt that this forum is not the proper place to discuss this and seek answers about it, I completely understand that also, and I shall seek answers elsewhere.

 

[wishfoot88]

Yyyyyeah! Pretty far-out for a first time post😕

i think that the person has only joined this forum, is to seek help.
after all, we spend most of our time on here talking about tickling and so i suppose they thought that if anyone knew about this, we would.

by the way, i am sorry that this happened to you. it is my belief that tickling should be a pleasant experience and not used in any other context.

sorry i could not be more helpful.........hope you find your answer🙂

 

[Sleepy Jean]

If the OP was on the level, then what that person experienced was child abuse. Satanic ritual, my ass! It was child abuse and nothing else. And I thought we weren't supposed to talk about people under the age of majority being tickled by (alleged) adults.

 

[Headsnap]

Surely worshipping Satan in any form goes against the very tenets of Satanism? Or is that just LaVeyan Satanism? Because LaVeyan Satanism is cool and doesn't require kids to be abused in any way :-o

 

[Ace Riley]

If the OP was on the level, then what that person experienced was child abuse. Satanic ritual, my ass! It was child abuse and nothing else. And I thought we weren't supposed to talk about people under the age of majority being tickled by (alleged) adults.

If it's a true story, and it pertains to yourself then it's not exactly something that can not be a focus of discussion. Especially if he's just trying to get answers.

To the OP, sorry for the jokes if this is all true. Keep in mind we're a pretty crazy group of people and I'm normally filled with tickle endorphins amongst other chemicals all day. So don't get too upset.

Honestly though, I mean these people, where are they now in your life? Where they parents? Neighbors? Because if this is true, they have some serious explaining to do. I don't know how you could sit well with this.

 

[Deleted member 2452]

i looked into satanic stuff when i was in my 20's..

actually in my late teens, and into my early 20's.
no where did i find anything that included tickling. boy was i disappointed!
a lot of sex, some bdsm, but no tickling!
what happened to the poster was sexual abuse by perverts. i would be suprised if it was not filmed.
i hope you find fun and happiness here at the tmf, and shoot the assholes that did this deplorable act to you.

steve

 

[Paultickler]

for me tickling is a bless from God or the way you want to call him, but not from Satan, Satan is just for the heavy metal lovers!

 

[Ace Riley]

for me tickling is a bless from God or the way you want to call him, but not from Satan, Satan is just for the heavy metal lovers!

 

[Sandrock74]

Ironhide is in there! Thats awesome. LMAO

 

[desertkruzr]

Thanks again to all who responded. I'll go through and respond a bit to some of those who commented.

I'm working on another post that will give everyone here more of my background, and maybe will help put some of this in perspective for people. Hopefully, I'll post that tomorrow.


TklDuo-Ann: Thanks again. As I said, I may email you. I read through the posts at the thread you sent. It sounds like you, and some others here went through a rough time also.
Awesome web site, by the way! I checked it out for a while. Very nice job! 🙂


Sandrock74: As I said before, very understandable skepticism. I'm not a fly-by-night poster though. Believe me when I tell you, these experiences were all too real.

Incidentally, the reason, in my opinion, that some people are able, through hypnosis, and other means, to remember things from such an early age (some even as far back as in the womb even though the brain is not yet fully developed) is that there is a part of our consciousness that is "aware" outside of our body and brain. There is currently a Doctor with Cornell University that is attempting to prove this through an interesting series of experiments. I know that this is way off topic, but anyone who is interested can read about this here:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/time/20080923/hl_time/whathappenswhenwedie


BlondeWitch: Thanks for your comments and insights. It's my understanding though that there are different types of satanists, and the practices and rituals, and even their overall intentions can vary considerably.

One reason for tickling a child in such a ritual is that intense, non-consentual tickling of a child in this manner can both open them to you, and terrify them at the same time. I feel that the child may then be even more susceptible to negative suggestions, and so forth, when traumatized in this way, as opposed to just pure pain. Plus, it leaves no visible marks. So what's the child going to say to his parents? His Aunts held him down and tickled him? It doesn't really sound like anything all that bad happened to him.

Some satanists also siphon off the psychic energy generated in the child from all of the terror and trauma as a form of energy for themselves, possibly to intensify whatever they are trying to do in the ritual, or just as a high, and an energy boost. It's a form of vampirism, actually.

Yes, you're right! What you're saying makes a lot of sense. There is way more to this. The whole story that I've related here is just the tip of the iceberg, believe me. And researching it is not without it's dangers, but I'm no stranger to that. I am already quite aware of a lot of the puzzle pieces, and how they fit together, and I know that the whole tickling thing that I went through was part of a satanic ritual. I'm actually not here to try and find out if this was real or not, for I already know that it was. I'm here trying to get information that may help me in trying to do deeper research into the group that was involved.

Ace Riley: No apologies necessary! 🙂 The jokes are completely understandable. Thanks for letting the post stay. It is very much appreciated.

 

[Redmage]

The existence of vampires (or lack thereof) aside, it still strikes me as odd that no such case of multigenerational large-scale satanic ritual abuse has ever been demonstrated. Ever.

 

[lamb]

I was going to post yesterady saying I doubted this, but I "bite my tongue", so to speak. But since other people have brought it up, I want to add in my two cents.

I was raised in a highly religious household, and my mother is a firm believer in SRA. I did my own research growing up, and it turns out there's next to no evidence that such a thing exists on a wide scale. And if there is such a creature as the devil, I bet you he'd have better ways of corrupting children then tickling them.

Good god.

Honestly, I think this post is horrible, and demeans real abuse victims. If someone really were abused in such a manner, I can't imagine them being sexually aroused, or even interested, in tickling at all (let alone discuss it on a fetish forum with complete strangers). The thought is mind blowing to me.

I'm sorry if this comes off as harsh, but this was totally unnecessary. It sounds like this is simply a really fucked up fantasy, and I feel like I need a shower just from reading it.

 

[911]

I'm not going to say this is true or not but religious nuts abusing kids is nothing new. It's also possible a dellusion or false memory is at play, I know someone who has false memories to the sufferer they're very real.

 

[The Sean Man]

i think that the person has only joined this forum, is to seek help.
after all, we spend most of our time on here talking about tickling and so i suppose they thought that if anyone knew about this, we would.

by the way, i am sorry that this happened to you. it is my belief that tickling should be a pleasant experience and not used in any other context.

sorry i could not be more helpful.........hope you find your answer🙂

Let me clarify my statement...It was not my intention to say that he was making up a wild story...I was just saying that that was quite an admission to make in his first post here on the TMF.

Sorry if there was a misunderstanding.

 

[Tiger.Lily]

If someone really were abused in such a manner, I can't imagine them being sexually aroused, or even interested, in tickling at all (let alone discuss it on a fetish forum with complete strangers). The thought is mind blowing to me.

With all due respect, it's completely plausible that he might be turned on by tickling after his alleged abuse. One might compare his situation to a rape victim who fantasizes about being raped to get off. It's a reaction that a lot of sexually abused people have.