First of all, Banshee, I have to disagree with you. What I did was wrong, foolish, unethical, fraud, identity theft, whatever else you want to say. TIB has every right to throw the book at me and watch me burn.
He has the right to, and probably the obligation to. I'm simply pleading for any sort of mercy.
As far as that conversation posted above, I still say it went nowhere. I never promised any money to ANYONE, nor was I ever sent any video by ANYONE. I was asked if it was for real, and how much she could make. I replied that it depended on the details, and it never went any further..I certainly didn't receive anything.
I'm sure a lot of you have the image of me being a middle aged man in my parents' basement trying to lure minors into my home, and everything else that was said about me. I can assure you that nothing could be further from the truth. Just a young man making a very stupid mistake.
I'm certainly not the victim here, far from it, but I have been 'scared straight', so to speak, as far as this out of control fetish is concerned. I don't know if anybody has ever "quit" this, or if I'll be the first to do so. But any videos I've purchased or downloaded have been deleted, photos, stories, etc. As soon as this matter is resolved one way or another, I'll leave this forum. And for any interested, I did come out to my fiancee today. After a long, difficult discussion, she's been very forgiving, provided I seek professional help, which I'm in the process of doing. If I've ever been in a 'I hope you've learned your lesson' situation, this is it.
We've all made mistakes, albeit none as serious as mine, I'm sure. But at some point in our lives I'm sure we've all wanted a 'do-over' card. God, I could use one now. That said, nothing I did should be taken lightly, or dismissed as 'nothing serious'. It is. I'm just asking for mercy, and again, hoping that this mistake hasn't ruined my life.