Okay,... I'm sort of morbidly (and cynically) curious about some of the sentiments being expressed in this thread. Why?
I recall an old episode of the TV show MASH,.. in which Boston Brahmin Major Winchester inquires of B. J. Hunnicutt,.... "Why does Pierce have this preoccupation with sex?" To which B. J. replies, "Lack of occupation with sex."
Now I'm not complaining about clips serving as a substitute for that "lack of occupation," with your favorite pastime,.. Hell, I've done it, too, during times of deprivation. But I have yet to view a clip which truly took the place of actual experience,... and further, I just don't feel that actual experience is that tough to arrange. In fact, watching a clip always left the bitter under taste of deprivation,.. a rotten reminder that circumstances were unacceptable. Somehow I could hear a doddering Charles Boyer doing, "Pardon me, Miss, but I've never done this with a real, live girl."
Is that how it is? Because IF that's how it is, then it would be wise to consider the possibility that those free-flowing clips are also a de-motivating factor. It may pass the time to roll a joint, crack a beer, throw on a clip and jerk. But if that's just making it more bearable for you NOT to have the life you want, then maybe it's time to review. I've worked my butt off at this and it has definitely been worth it,.. however I have always aimed for the lasting relationship. Shallow and piecemeal is a hard way to go.
Just a thought. Nobody needs to tell me I'm an asshole - I'm already aware of that. But for God's sake, don't let this pass you by.