apology

It would seem I owe the forum a big apology for acting as I did. I was angry and like most people, I wasnt thinking clearly either.

So I would like to apologize to all of you here.

Like so many people out there. I have trust issues and self esteem issues that stem back to many years ago. My jealousy and anger have caused me to do some really stupid things.

My father was an alcoholic who beat my mother on more than one occasion. My step father after my mother remarried was extremely abusive with his words to me. As with his anger. (My self esteem was born)

My mother was an incredibly negative person. Which now has rubbed off on me. (This taught me to always view the glass half empty)

I have always had horrible relationships. Since my wife left me. when she left for another man it really took something from me. (I believe where my jealousy was born.) I raised my chidren as a single dad for many years. Since then I have had little to no friends to talk to.

I never meant to hurt anyone and some people just bring out the worst in each other. If that's even possible.

I'm trying to work through my issues as well as look inside myself for the strength to move forward and resolve some I dont know about.

If I've come off as a total jerk which I'm sure I have I want to apologize to Tamia and the rest of the forum. Everyone makes mistakes. This was one of mine.

I hope I can get to know people. I ask to anyone who reads this, if you know some good exercises for this please let me know.