[Songblog][Hands Down]

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.​

Thinking about my first kiss. In the second grade when you threw a pinecone at my head, did you think one day we’d fall in love? Our first love. Remember watching Spaceballs in the basement, and I gave you my Sonic the Hedgehog doll? And you gave me Tails. Then we went out to the treehouse and talked for hours about video games. Hide-and-go-seek in the woods. Adolescence. Truth or Dare. Puberty. High school. Freshman year. Then it changed. Our love dimmed out over one summer, and one day we just stopped talking. I wondered why until I met her, and I was happy for you. When you left me for her, did you know then that she was the girl you’d end up marrying? I was your first, but she is your last​

flash .forward. Ninth grade.
Andrew. I love you, and I think I still do. From the first day of Science when we were paired together, did you think we’d fall in love? I know you still love me too. Your love was the best kind. I miss you. I miss hanging at the skatepark. We smoked your first joint together. We had our first drink together. Hell, we had our first three way together. You wrote me that song. You taught me to play it. I’m sorry I happened. I’m sorry I hurt you. I’m happy you forgave me, but I didn’t deserve it. Neither did you.​

flash.forward.
Nick. Remember when we skipped school, drove out of town to a pool hall and you taught me how to play? You didn’t think we’d fall in love. I did. I still think about you. Lying peacefully in the sun, naps in the hammock, playing strip Smash Brothers, watching Trigun and Yami No Matsuei. Geeking out and acting like total dorks. Searching for pet stores to find the perfect lizard. Singing Queen in high school.
Remember when we acted that scene from the Princess Bride in drama class? And the gasps of the crowd when you actually did kiss me, and the bonus marks we got for that. And then...your friends stepped in. Stepped on. Stomped on.​

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it
​