How I've missed you.
Okay, so I stopped tanning a few months back. Worst decision of my life. (Please spare me the health concerns.. I've read them all as well.) Once I stopped, I became depressed, never wanted to leave the house, everything aggravated me. I was MISERABLE, actually, beyond miserable. I felt horrible about myself, pushed my friends away, stopped talking to everyone. I hardly gave a shit about anything.
Then about a month ago, we lost the baby. At that point I decided I was going to do things for me. I slowly started going back to the tanning bed and started weight watchers again. Within two weeks, I began to start feeling like my old self again.
I have confidence, I want to see my friends, in fact I talked to one of them for 2 hrs last night and then hung out with her most of the day today. I have a dire need to be social and finally leave my house. I want to go places, do things, face people. It's an amazing feeling.
I'm not even sure what happened to make me feel miserable.. But I really hope it doesn't happen again. Because I have never felt this great in my entire life.
Oh, and I am TOTALLY diggin' this song right now.. Which is odd.. because it's really not my style. Enjoy!
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I fucking love you all. <3
Okay, so I stopped tanning a few months back. Worst decision of my life. (Please spare me the health concerns.. I've read them all as well.) Once I stopped, I became depressed, never wanted to leave the house, everything aggravated me. I was MISERABLE, actually, beyond miserable. I felt horrible about myself, pushed my friends away, stopped talking to everyone. I hardly gave a shit about anything.
Then about a month ago, we lost the baby. At that point I decided I was going to do things for me. I slowly started going back to the tanning bed and started weight watchers again. Within two weeks, I began to start feeling like my old self again.
I have confidence, I want to see my friends, in fact I talked to one of them for 2 hrs last night and then hung out with her most of the day today. I have a dire need to be social and finally leave my house. I want to go places, do things, face people. It's an amazing feeling.
I'm not even sure what happened to make me feel miserable.. But I really hope it doesn't happen again. Because I have never felt this great in my entire life.
Oh, and I am TOTALLY diggin' this song right now.. Which is odd.. because it's really not my style. Enjoy!
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I fucking love you all. <3
