Agonize would be the tip of my iceburg.
Even after making the decision I still haven't acted on it because of all the "what if" questions floating around in my head. So I endure the damage and hope for the best, but I know deep down inside that eventually I will have to do it and believe that the surgery will prevail.
I even debated with myself to even bring the issue to this thread because I knew someone would be out there to judge me on it. People can't help themselves sometimes but I know where my heart is on the matter and won't be belittled for my decisions. At the end of the day it was better to take him and offer him life as opposed to a shelter where I can almost guarantee he'd be euthanized or returned after adoption because of behavioral issues. I think I did the right thing and although we're not exactly bonded buddies I feel he deserves life over death.
When I eventually get the procedure done I'll let you know (in private) how things went for him. I've owned enough declawed cats to know that they can live happy lives without front claws. Buttons previous owner declawed him on all four paws then still gave him away. I never did understand why someone would do that to him, but my daughter picked him to live with us for that exact reason because she was horribly afraid of cats back then. I ended up with him 16 years and they were pretty darned good ones.
Even after making the decision I still haven't acted on it because of all the "what if" questions floating around in my head. So I endure the damage and hope for the best, but I know deep down inside that eventually I will have to do it and believe that the surgery will prevail.
I even debated with myself to even bring the issue to this thread because I knew someone would be out there to judge me on it. People can't help themselves sometimes but I know where my heart is on the matter and won't be belittled for my decisions. At the end of the day it was better to take him and offer him life as opposed to a shelter where I can almost guarantee he'd be euthanized or returned after adoption because of behavioral issues. I think I did the right thing and although we're not exactly bonded buddies I feel he deserves life over death.
When I eventually get the procedure done I'll let you know (in private) how things went for him. I've owned enough declawed cats to know that they can live happy lives without front claws. Buttons previous owner declawed him on all four paws then still gave him away. I never did understand why someone would do that to him, but my daughter picked him to live with us for that exact reason because she was horribly afraid of cats back then. I ended up with him 16 years and they were pretty darned good ones.