Oddjob0226
4th Level Indigo Feather
- Joined
- Apr 22, 2001
- Messages
- 6,868
- Points
- 0
Sorry to obsess, but here's my above post without the typos..... guess I'm just sick that way....... har!
Wow- I gotta credit the guy for being brave and stepping out there. And being honest. If I can summon up the guts, here's my turn.....
"Tickle torture" scenarious were my first fantasies as well,-we're talking as a young kid in the single digit years here - and still my best ones. I like and enjoy plaful tickling, and would actually like to see more affection ( kissing and sweet talk) in some of the videos out there.....
But
I am a human and as such I am not all good. There is that part of me, the glancing-at-a car-wreck side that does want to witness, even perform, nonconscentual tickling. Partly out of sadism, partly out of curiosity- what does it look like? How far is too far? And yes, I might whisper it secretly, shhhh... don't tell anyone- I might even be willing to undergo such treatment with someone I know. I don't mean kidnapping by strangers or any such thing, but I've always been curious about myself in 2 areas - 1. If I was being tickled for information, and I don't mean like some kind of fun, giggly thing like saying a secret word, but if I had something really useful to someone but didn't want to divulge it, under tickling- would I? How long would I last? What would it be like? Worse (for me), what if I was being tickled for the sheer sadistic joy of the tickler, and have nothing to offer for respite? Again, what would that be like? How far would be too far? How would it end? I brought this up once with a woman from San Antonio I was speaking with over the phone - if she was really being tickled- for real tickle torture - would she "break" ? And she answered yes. But would she be willing to tickle someone for hours, even days, if they consented to such treatment and gave up the free will to stop the tickling? In other words, conscented to non-conscentual tickling? She answered yes to that, too. She even went on saying that when you hear about criminals doing terrible things to their victims, why did they never tickle them, since it was so unberable? A few days later, we even tried out a wonderful tickle torture exercise (I'll tell you about it later, it's kind of involved). I really don't think we two are alone out there.
As far as being "sick" goes, is that word being used in a sarcastic sense, or is it used in a true patholigical sense that there is something wrong (and, potentially could be fixed?)
Now, WOULD I ever do such a thing to someone? Would I kidnap someone off the street and tickle them? NO! But I have to answer honestly - if I were to see a true toture tickling video tape, I don't know if I'd contact authrities or not. I like to think I would. However - I would indeed WATCH the tape in shocked fascination. I'm not proud of this - in fact, I don't know if that statement about watching the tape is even 100% true. But I am being honest, and the urge/curiosity is there. Would I ever tickle someone cruelly for revenge or for information? Well, we're all supposed to say no.... but, if my friends or family were threatened and I knew it would work.... who knows what I'd do. I really do think that I could do it to, say, a Hamas or Islamic Jihad cuite, to be honest, current things as they are. I wouldn't go beyond getting the info needed, & I'd try darn hard not to get caught. Also, I'd probably have terrible guilt feelings later, but I can't say I absoultely wouldn't do it, and enjoy it if only for the moment.
So there you go. In my life I have room for "both" kids of tickling. And, at least, when it comes to REAL tickle torture, I am at least willing to explore both the lerr and lee side, not just the ler, so there is some balance there. But I'm still more of a ler, and, while Dr. Jekyl is firmly in charge, it's not like he's unaware of Mr. Hyde. And Mr. Hyde isn't just a figment of his imagination - he's real.
Wow- I gotta credit the guy for being brave and stepping out there. And being honest. If I can summon up the guts, here's my turn.....
"Tickle torture" scenarious were my first fantasies as well,-we're talking as a young kid in the single digit years here - and still my best ones. I like and enjoy plaful tickling, and would actually like to see more affection ( kissing and sweet talk) in some of the videos out there.....
But
I am a human and as such I am not all good. There is that part of me, the glancing-at-a car-wreck side that does want to witness, even perform, nonconscentual tickling. Partly out of sadism, partly out of curiosity- what does it look like? How far is too far? And yes, I might whisper it secretly, shhhh... don't tell anyone- I might even be willing to undergo such treatment with someone I know. I don't mean kidnapping by strangers or any such thing, but I've always been curious about myself in 2 areas - 1. If I was being tickled for information, and I don't mean like some kind of fun, giggly thing like saying a secret word, but if I had something really useful to someone but didn't want to divulge it, under tickling- would I? How long would I last? What would it be like? Worse (for me), what if I was being tickled for the sheer sadistic joy of the tickler, and have nothing to offer for respite? Again, what would that be like? How far would be too far? How would it end? I brought this up once with a woman from San Antonio I was speaking with over the phone - if she was really being tickled- for real tickle torture - would she "break" ? And she answered yes. But would she be willing to tickle someone for hours, even days, if they consented to such treatment and gave up the free will to stop the tickling? In other words, conscented to non-conscentual tickling? She answered yes to that, too. She even went on saying that when you hear about criminals doing terrible things to their victims, why did they never tickle them, since it was so unberable? A few days later, we even tried out a wonderful tickle torture exercise (I'll tell you about it later, it's kind of involved). I really don't think we two are alone out there.
As far as being "sick" goes, is that word being used in a sarcastic sense, or is it used in a true patholigical sense that there is something wrong (and, potentially could be fixed?)
Now, WOULD I ever do such a thing to someone? Would I kidnap someone off the street and tickle them? NO! But I have to answer honestly - if I were to see a true toture tickling video tape, I don't know if I'd contact authrities or not. I like to think I would. However - I would indeed WATCH the tape in shocked fascination. I'm not proud of this - in fact, I don't know if that statement about watching the tape is even 100% true. But I am being honest, and the urge/curiosity is there. Would I ever tickle someone cruelly for revenge or for information? Well, we're all supposed to say no.... but, if my friends or family were threatened and I knew it would work.... who knows what I'd do. I really do think that I could do it to, say, a Hamas or Islamic Jihad cuite, to be honest, current things as they are. I wouldn't go beyond getting the info needed, & I'd try darn hard not to get caught. Also, I'd probably have terrible guilt feelings later, but I can't say I absoultely wouldn't do it, and enjoy it if only for the moment.
So there you go. In my life I have room for "both" kids of tickling. And, at least, when it comes to REAL tickle torture, I am at least willing to explore both the lerr and lee side, not just the ler, so there is some balance there. But I'm still more of a ler, and, while Dr. Jekyl is firmly in charge, it's not like he's unaware of Mr. Hyde. And Mr. Hyde isn't just a figment of his imagination - he's real.