I've been single for a long time now, years and years. In fact, other than a few little things, it's been pretty much over decade. Now my ex (the one I've been writing about) has always remained close and once a week, we'd get together and cuddle up, until she moved back to California a little over a year ago. So......I don't want be disingenuous....I've had AFFECTION in that time.......but I've been single, I haven't been seeking out love or sex or anything, after what I went through last time, I swore it all off in my 30s, and I love it, I love being alone, it's the best. I don't ever have to compromise and best of all, I don't have to worry and I don't have to protect. I had enough of those two things with my ex, enough to last me a lifetime.
I don't miss sex at all! I don't even miss tickling! Like I said......once a week, I still got to do what I want, so.......in reality, it's only been a little over a year that it's been TOTALLY dry, with not even a hand-holding. But even then, I don't miss anything. The minute I swore off relationships, I began to get things done in my life. I don't want someone around, I don't want anybody. It took me forever to get to this point......and now that those yearnings have gone - I don't want them back. For years and years, I haven't longed for anybody.
Until tonight.
I bumped into this girl again tonight.
Now......before that incident? I thought she was adorable and hot, but I didn't think of her like that at all! She's like my little sister! (actually we're exactly the same height but nevermind....).
Since those moments, I can still feel her navel through her dress, and squeezing her tight, I can still feel her in my hands. Her laugh may fade, but I'll remember how she felt the rest of my life.
Same as last time, I conked out super early, got up at midnight....decided to salvage the night and go out, went to the same exact place.....and I ran into this girl and her new boyfriend (new to me, I should say).
All the hours upon hours I spent with her, talking and joking around like it was nothing. She used to be my little sister. Now she's a 'lee. A very sexy, highly desirable 'lee. And obviously very, very ticklish. Everything's changed.
We just talked really quick, and then when i was leaving, they were on their way out too. On the sidewalk, we talked
for a little bit. I said I was going to catch a cab - and as I stood on the curb, I watched them walk away. Her and her boyfriend.
He's got to know. He's got to know how ticklish she is. Please, let her get tickled tonight. And then again tomorrow morning. For the first time since I don't know when, forever it seemed like.....I felt envious, I wanted to be with her, I wanted to go home with her, I wanted to chase her around the apartment, catch her and get her. I wanted to be in
bed with her all night, I thought about every inch of her body. I wanted to tickle her with my hands over the sheets,
clawing my way all over......she couldn't take it for two seconds, can you imagine what REALLY tickling her would be
like?
I want to know about her legs. I want to know about under her arms. I want to know about her neck. I want to know
about her toes and about her soles. Her hip line. i want to know every inch of her. I want to wake up next to her, and
start all over again, never get out of bed the whole day. I want to live the rest of life with her.
I want to BE that guy.
That NEVER happens to me. But it just goes to show you.......once a 'lee reveals herself, I can never look at her the same way again.
I hope he appreciates what he's got.
I don't miss sex at all! I don't even miss tickling! Like I said......once a week, I still got to do what I want, so.......in reality, it's only been a little over a year that it's been TOTALLY dry, with not even a hand-holding. But even then, I don't miss anything. The minute I swore off relationships, I began to get things done in my life. I don't want someone around, I don't want anybody. It took me forever to get to this point......and now that those yearnings have gone - I don't want them back. For years and years, I haven't longed for anybody.
Until tonight.
I bumped into this girl again tonight.
Now......before that incident? I thought she was adorable and hot, but I didn't think of her like that at all! She's like my little sister! (actually we're exactly the same height but nevermind....).
Since those moments, I can still feel her navel through her dress, and squeezing her tight, I can still feel her in my hands. Her laugh may fade, but I'll remember how she felt the rest of my life.
Same as last time, I conked out super early, got up at midnight....decided to salvage the night and go out, went to the same exact place.....and I ran into this girl and her new boyfriend (new to me, I should say).
All the hours upon hours I spent with her, talking and joking around like it was nothing. She used to be my little sister. Now she's a 'lee. A very sexy, highly desirable 'lee. And obviously very, very ticklish. Everything's changed.
We just talked really quick, and then when i was leaving, they were on their way out too. On the sidewalk, we talked
for a little bit. I said I was going to catch a cab - and as I stood on the curb, I watched them walk away. Her and her boyfriend.
He's got to know. He's got to know how ticklish she is. Please, let her get tickled tonight. And then again tomorrow morning. For the first time since I don't know when, forever it seemed like.....I felt envious, I wanted to be with her, I wanted to go home with her, I wanted to chase her around the apartment, catch her and get her. I wanted to be in
bed with her all night, I thought about every inch of her body. I wanted to tickle her with my hands over the sheets,
clawing my way all over......she couldn't take it for two seconds, can you imagine what REALLY tickling her would be
like?
I want to know about her legs. I want to know about under her arms. I want to know about her neck. I want to know
about her toes and about her soles. Her hip line. i want to know every inch of her. I want to wake up next to her, and
start all over again, never get out of bed the whole day. I want to live the rest of life with her.
I want to BE that guy.
That NEVER happens to me. But it just goes to show you.......once a 'lee reveals herself, I can never look at her the same way again.
I hope he appreciates what he's got.
