Meh. I'll consider it. The main issue I'm feeling right now is the depression at the possibility that I'm such a sick freak that I'd have to undergo this to be normal... whatever the hell that is anyway.
So weird though, because when I was in high school, all the guys seemed into it. Tickling a cute girl in the hall or in class (once in awhile, that is) was just normal. Nothing weird about it.
Yeah, you can tell I'm from Michigan, can't you?
You don't have to feel awful about it. While change comes with a lil bit of effort some changes are for the better. And some cults (including Nordicism the cult I've adhered to) constantly meditate for different reasons, either to shape some aspects of personality that they dont like or to spiritually advance themselves, relax etc. Like nobody gets born with a perfect athletic body but can gain such a body through fitness, so does not anyone get born with a perfect spirit but can reshape it through meditation.
If you do want to meditate you can do it this way.
First sit down in a comfortable position or lie down (but be careful not to fall asleep if you lie down) close your eyes and start breathing on a six measure. Draw breath for a count of six, hold breath for a count of six and release air for a count of six. As you do this you will become more and more relaxed. Best time to do this is in the morning, just after you wake up, because at that time your brain is fresh and your body is well rested. Before you begin the actual meditation you first need to put your body into a great level of relaxation (otherwise you will not achieve alpha mind level, a light trance). To relax your body concentrate your sense of awareness on different parts of your body and relax them. First concentrate on the scalp, relieve all tension and put it into a deep state of relaxation. Continue to do so with your eyelids, cheeks, neck outside and inside, shoulders, arms, forearms, hands, chest (outside and inside), belly (outside and inside,feeling the organs working in a rhythmic healthy manner), legs, knees calves and feet. One at a time, going from top to bottom you put each bit of your body into a deep state of relaxation. Now you are at the threshold between beta (aware) and alpha (light trance) levels. It is very important at this point not to get enraged, disturbed by noises or open your eyes because if you do so you'll have to start over. Now starting from bottom to top you start releasing the weight of your body parts up to the point you feel yourself weightless like you would be made of mist and start feeling yourself slowly floating down within a dark place. The falling effect combined with deep physical relaxation will help you enter a trance, first alpha level, if you go deeper theta and if you try to go even deeper you may even reach delta, the dreamless state, the state in which adepts communicate with gods in a wordless way (although I dont advise you to go as deep as delta in the beginning). You can also count down from 20 to 1, suggesting you go deeper and deeper with each count and reminding yourself each five counts that at the count of one you enter a deeper state of mind (from beta to alpha and from alpha to theta if you wanna go as deep as theta).Once you enter a trance visualize yourself either within an empty place or within an environment that you enjoy and find peaceful and relaxing. Now visualize symbols of tickling, what you most associate with tickling, and you can visualize things that you associate with other fetishes if you do have other fetishes that you want removed. Now visualize all this symbols being put into an unbreakable box, being locked tightly within the box and sealed. The visualize the box being set on fire until all that remain of it and it's fetish contents is just a pile of ash,then visualize the wind blowing the ashes out of your sight. Now say in a calm but firm voice (while you are still within the trance) my tickling fetish is no longer part of me. I am rid of it. It does not come back to bother me unless I decide so (as the oriental teaching say, during meditation it's important to keep all thing present, making all affirmations in the present, not in the past and not in the future. If affirmations are made in the past like "have been" or in the future "will be" they may have no effect). Now visualize different vanilla sex scenes and affirm "Normal sex is what turns me on. The sight of tits, pussies and asses (and anything else you may want to turn you on) fills me with sexual lust, giving me the strongest erection and my orgasms are very intense".Also you may plant other more socially accepted fetishes if you really want a fetish like spanking (I never heard anyone having a problem with spanking).Oh and be sure to plant strong turn-ons from receiving a blow-job or licking a pussy as this things are modern and not only socially accepted, but even promoted by porn industry. After you did it all it's time to bring yourself out of the trance. Slowly count down from 10 to 1 saying this "I begin counting down from 10 to 1. When I reach number 1 I am right awake feeling fine and in perfect health, feeling better then before and this is so." Now start counting down. When you reach number 5 say again "at numer one I am right awake, feeling fine and in perfect health feeling better then before and this is so." Continue counting down to three and when you reach number three remind yourself again what will happen when you reach number one. Now when you reach number one say "I am right awake feeling fine and in perfect health, feeling better then before, no dizziness, no buzzing in my ears, no sleepiness, no foggy eyesight, no stiff muscles, just the good feeling of being relaxed like after a good relaxing nap." When you do that you will wake up. Now move your limbs, flex your muscles, get up and walk for a few minutes. This should remove the neural path that links the tickling with sex and in the unlikely event it doesn't happen from the first time be persistent and try it a few times, it will eventually fade away. It's important not to look at tickling videos if you're not sure the neural path was removed because they may restore it if it's not completely gone.
That's about it. Hope it helps.
